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519. Date: 04 May 2017

I have always found comfort in the sea. To stand on the beach, feel the power of the waves crashing into the sand and rocks, and taste the salty mist in the air is to realize how small we are. All of our lives - the underlying angst, the stellar highs, and crashing lows - will be outlived and made insignificant by the sea. It's both timeless and forever changing, dynamic and dangerous while serene and beautiful. The juxtaposition of my life, standing there on that beach, against the endless and beautiful and powerful sea, brings me a sense of calm like no other place on earth.

518. Date: 22 Apr 2017

I was sitting on the train with my friend minding my own business. Living my life. He just kept looking at me. He wouldn't stop. Next train, the mother was trying to explain to her little girl why I was black. I guess that's just life as a black girl in Asia.

517. Date: 13 Apr 2017

I don't know where my research is going anymore! I feel so trapped. I hope to find the light.

516. Date: 05 Apr 2017

hi

515. Date: 02 Apr 2017

hello this i gaurav

514. Date: 23 Mar 2017

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513. Date: 17 Feb 2017

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512. Date: 26 Jan 2017

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511. Date: 15 Jan 2017

Woaw man! This is great! You've just got a message from the guy with the longest penis in the world!

510. Date: 10 Jan 2017

hi
i want to know u.

509. Date: 09 Jan 2017

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508. Date: 17 Oct 2016

I need a one million dollars !!

507. Date: 01 Sep 2016

I think you're beautiful.

506. Date: 21 Jul 2016

Please come back.
Please come back to me.
Please come.
Please me.
Please.
Come back.
Back to me.
Come to me.
Back me.
Please.
Come back.
Please.
Please come back to me.

505. Date: 07 Jul 2016

I love you.

504. Date: 06 May 2016

hi

503. Date: 19 Jan 2016

Let's try this site for a couple of months.

The developer is originally from Egypt (I believe) and I would like to support him because I'm Egyptian as well.

502. Date: 06 Dec 2015

The tide rises

501. Date: 21 Oct 2015

ぬるぽ

500. Date: 09 Aug 2015

Onur, my Petit Prince, why have you disppeared without a trace? I've fallen in love with you.
Claudia

499. Date: 09 Aug 2015

Onur, my Petit Prince, why have you disppeared without a trace? I've fallen in love with you.
Claudia

498. Date: 18 Jul 2015

The ageless woman walks before me, never more than a few steps ahead. I know that where the road comes to an end, she will halt and wait for me. Often do I wish that it would happen already, that the journey could finally be over. But when I call for her and she slows down her steps, I realise I am slowing down mine as well. I understand, then, that despite my weariness I still want to see more, I want to travel a little bit further.

And so we continue on, the ageless woman before me, never more than a few steps ahead.

497. Date: 10 Jul 2015

I never wear underwear. I thought that you might find that interesting. You should try it, you might like it.

496. Date: 14 Jun 2015

tests

495. Date: 02 Apr 2015

What would be the one superpower you would choose to have?

494. Date: 13 Mar 2015

Hello let's see how will see this

493. Date: 04 Mar 2015

everything will be fine by this summer!!

492. Date: 01 Mar 2015

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491. Date: 09 Dec 2014

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490. Date: 16 Sep 2014

cuddling naked with him is the best feeling ever. can i just do that from now on?
why doesn't anything matter when i'm with him? i am worried this is not normal.
i shouldn't get so attached. all good things end...

try cuddling with someone tonight! cause i won't for a while...

489. Date: 11 Sep 2014

Hej

488. Date: 29 Aug 2014

Hello World!!

487. Date: 22 Jul 2014

I miss you so much.

486. Date: 16 Jul 2014

Wow. It's only a couple days away from the 45th anniversary of the moon landing, and I'm just browsing the internet.

485. Date: 28 Jun 2014

http://meritocracyparty.org/

484. Date: 17 Jun 2014

Dear Reader,

This message is part of an art project that I have been set. I have been assigned the task of sending a message in a bottle. This is task an investigation on the idea of anonymity in the public space. In this case the message has been sent to you, you do not know who the sender is, and neither does the sender know who you are. The public space in question is the internet, and more specifically the digital bottles website.

The question of what makes someone anonymous is difficult to answer. Does the quality of being anonymous just mean not having a name? Am I still anonymous if I tell you my deepest darkest secrets? What if I told you where I live without providing any other details? For these purposes being anonymous means that you know nothing of me, and I nothing of you.

Whilst reading this message you are possibly wondering who I am. But to answer that question would be to reduce my own anonymity, as you would then know something about me. But to reduce my anonymity would be to increase the humanity of this message & create a more personal connection with you.

Conversely as you are wondering who I am, I am wondering who you are. What your favourite season is, what your favourite colour is, who you love, who you don't love, the things you are passionate about, the things you like doing, the things you don't like doing. These things I may never know about you & you may never know about me, because you are just a stranger in public & I am just a message on the internet.

-lxuhing

483. Date: 13 Jun 2014

Go out to the rain
Let it wash your mind,Calm you down
Let it clear your heart,Ease your pain
Let it give you two wings to Fly Away.
Go out to the rain.

482. Date: 01 Jun 2014

Something to smile at today:

A frog goes into a bank and approaches the teller.

He can see from her nameplate that her name is Patricia Whack.

"Miss Whack, I'd like to get a $30,000 loan to take a holiday."

Patty looks at the frog in disbelief and asks his name. The frog says, "My name is Kermit Jagger. My Dad is Mick Jagger. It's okay; I know the bank manager."

Patty explains that he will need to secure the loan with some collateral.

The frog says, "Sure. I have this," and produces a tiny porcelain elephant, about an inch tall, bright pink and perfectly formed.

Very confused, Patty explains that she'll have to consult with the bank manager and disappears into a back office.

She finds the manager and says, "There's a frog called Kermit Jagger out there who claims to know you and wants to borrow $30,000, and he wants to use this as collateral."

She holds up the tiny pink elephant. "I mean, what in the world is this?"

The bank manager looks back at her and says...

"It's a knickknack, Patty Whack. Give the frog a loan. His old man's a Rolling Stone."

481. Date: 21 May 2014

So I have killed 8 people so far. Tomorrow will be my lucky number 9. Im going to be a great star one day. But I hope everything is okey with you. Dont worry Im not going to kill you. Definately you are american or Irish. Im from Latvia by the way. Do you know anything about Latvia. I know a lot. Our queen is Putin. She is really beautiful. Our capital is Peterburg. Its a really nice place.
Have you ever been to prison? I have. I ran away last september, now Im a free man.
I had a nice childhood. I was the most beautiful girl in my neighborhood. You are ugly but if you buy my superunique potion you will be beautiful like with 5 decades or sth. So its really working. you can search google "super unique beauty potion". I am now like hyperbeautiful. so so so handsome.
I think i should go away now. Tomorrow is a busy day. Got to do some stuff.
bye, hope you have a good day
p.s buy my supercool potion, if you buy it within ten days youll get another 5000 potions. You will neverever get that good oppotunity. so but it now. maybe i will send a lawntractor too. I have one right here.

480. Date: 19 May 2014

--- April 25, 2009 ---

I wanted to kill him.

I wanted to take his knife and impale his flesh over and over again. And over and over and over. I could have lived with his blood on my hands, but instead I limped away, broken, and he was still breathing.

I hadn’t so much as lifted a finger to make him stop. He pulled off my pants and removed his; all the while he held the knife to my throat.

“Are you going to kill me?” I managed to whimper. You’re such a coward, I thought, condemning myself.

He ignored me and continued. I didn’t know what to do, nor could I manage to bring myself to do anything anyway, so that’s exactly what I did. Nothing. Before long, I had abandoned my mind. It wasn’t as if I was just looking down at myself in horror. No, I had simply left this nightmare. Everything went black and all the while I remained conscious. I vaguely remember bits and pieces of the event, mostly his dark, soulless eyes that gazed down at me. He suddenly stopped, seeming unamused and it was likely due to my lack of willingness to fight back – perhaps my cowardice proved worthy after all. He sat back and looked at me for what seemed like ages.

“Are you going to call the police?” he asked me, calmly.

I couldn’t speak, the words wouldn’t form.

“This is my first time, I’ve never done this before,” he said, as if explaining his decision to discontinue this unconsented intercourse.

Suddenly, it was as if a switch had been flipped in me. I became enraged, not caring or even contemplating what could happen next.

“Get the fuck out of my car you piece of shit!”

At that, his eyes widened and for the first time, I could see that he was caught off guard and unsure what to do. But then he did -- he got out of the car and I sped away, bewildered.

By the time I pulled into the driveway, I was numb again. I put my shorts back on, got out of the car, and walked inside, not even acknowledging the greeting from my mother. We had moved across the state just 2 weeks before so she dismissed my silence for mourning. Days went by and I kept to myself before I finally decided to confess to my parents what had happened. I was scared and humiliated. I was 19. I didn't know what to do or how to act; I never thought anything like this would happen to me.

--- 2009, continued ---

My mother immediately exploded in hysteria, yelling, “We must call the police! We must tell your brother! We must do something!” Mom loved drama and even more so, she loved telling people about it. She told just about every person she knew that would listen about what had happened to me, from my second grade teacher to even my brother’s ex-girlfriend’s mother, who insensibly asked that I also tell her daughter about what happened just to prove that “it could happen to anyone.”

And so began the draining process through the justice system as victim, Jane Doe (I chose to remain anonymous). The detective on my case immediately assumed that I was lying. I recall sitting in her office and her trying to reiterate the severity of what could happen if they found out. I hated her for this. How dare she undermine what happened to me and accuse me of fabricating my story. What the hell kind of nightmarish world had I been plunged into? Just 6 months ago I was freshly graduated from high school, enjoying the good life on the beach with my life-long friends, and being a carefree, normal girl--I was so happy, so unsuspecting. And now my world had been splintered into millions of pieces, just as a thin piece of glass would be if it had been struck with a 20 pound sledge hammer. I had moved to some fucked up, Stepford-looking neighborhood that housed the very location I was raped on one end of the street and on the other was where I slept every night. Not only that, but the only people I came to for help were clearly indicating that they weren’t buying my story because I had waited a few days to come forward. Three years later, I learned that that same detective killed herself. I didn’t care – not even a little bit. I gladly imagined her shakingly drag a Colt .38 up to her temple, tears streaming down her red, puffy face, and pull the trigger. I relived that moment over and over again. No one ever told me how she did it, but after imagining several different methods; I decided that splattering her own brains against the wall pleased me the most.

At the time of the incident, I was in a relationship with a soldier named Joe who happened to be getting ready to deploy to Iraq. He flew into town to see me and we had been bickering about me moving back home. He insisted I stay, knowing it would only upset my parents for me to leave, and that’s when I told him. At first he was angry. Joe’s face hardened and his body stiffened. He glared at me for a moment and then stood up and stormed out of the house, but not before bitterly demanding, “I want to go home!”

If I had anything left of me to break, it was shattered in that moment. I couldn’t fathom why he was so angry. I sought comfort in him, I trusted him. I never thought I would have to run after him in the moment that I needed him the most. But I did run after him and I cried and pleaded for him stay. I thought I loved him, so after winning him back over, he was able to transfer to the city I moved to and spend his remaining time in the states with me. He would spend weeks and months at a time away at training camps, preparing for his deployment and, in my weakness, I clung to him.

His best friend, Blake, and I were friends. Joe and I had met through Blake in fact, who had once dated one of my friends. One day while Joe was gone on one of his stints for training, Blake and I were talking on the phone. I had voiced my concern over Joe’s constant texting with a girl in his platoon. I knew that they were “battle buddies” and feared that I was being paranoid, so I never expressed my concern to him. But Blake didn’t hesitate to tell me what I dreaded to hear.

“Look,” he said, the pity radiating in his tone. “After all you’ve been through lately, I don’t want to lie to you.”

He went on to tell me about how Joe was indeed seeing this girl. They had been hooking up for months and started after he moved in with me and my family. Blake also told me that on the night that I was raped, Joe had been with another girl but he didn’t stop there.

“Let me take care of you, <my name>,” he pleaded with me. “I would be good to you; you would never have to worry about me hurting you. Call Joe and break up with him.”

That bastard! That fucking snake! He was trying to slither his way into my life and replace Joe when he knew I was fragile. But I believed him. I couldn’t speak anymore and I couldn’t listen either. I got off the phone and remember just sitting in my room, not crying and hardly thinking, just sitting. I felt exhausted, like I just couldn’t manage another blow like this and I wanted to just give up. After a while, I mustered up the energy to call Joe. He confessed everything to me and this time it was him crying and pleading for me stay, which my vulnerability forced me to do. I never talked to Blake again.

It makes sense now, Joe’s reaction. I believe it was guilt that caused him to be so angry when I told him, for it was not in my character to falsely create a story about being raped with a knife held to my throat. I want to think that he had no doubt it was true but was so overwhelmed with shock and shame that he had to turn the tables on me. Maybe that’s not it, but it’s what I want to believe.

--- 2010 ---

I stayed with Joe and more incidents arose of his infidelity but my decrepit psyche would not allow me to let him go. And so I grew reclusive, submerging in self-pity, always alone when Joe was gone, and pushing everything and everyone else away. I quit my job, dropped out of college, sold my horse (who I had once loved more than anything), was angry with my mom for exploiting my tragedy for her own self-absorbed intentions, and angry with myself for tolerating this worsening relationship. I was spiraling downward. Joe purposed to me and I said yes, but not a month later, there was another incident that came to my attention, and I finally gathered the strength I needed to separate myself from him. I didn’t feel liberated though, my mind was still a jail cell in which I simmered and squirmed from torture.

He kept calling me for months afterwards telling me that they would take his guns away because they deemed him a high suicide risk. He would sob and beg for me to change my mind. I became completely apathetic and would ignore his long distance calls from Iraq. Eventually I changed my number. With the unleashed resentment I had developed for Joe, I frankly just didn’t care what happened to him.

In February of that year, one of my dearest friends from my hometown killed himself. He called me 6 times in the days leading up to it and I would call him back and miss him every time. I would leave messages saying things like “Tag you’re it!” or “Hey doofus, call me back!” He was a senior in high school and just 3 months shy of graduating. His girlfriend of 2 year had broken up with him and wanted to just be friends but they remained sexually involved. I had tried to advice against it because I felt it wouldn’t allow him to let her go and move on. I got the call on February 8th from Christen, saying Zach had shot himself in the head and was on life support all day – they had just pulled the plug.

“Why the hell didn’t anyone call me sooner?” I yelled angrily at Christen.

“<My name>, what were you going to do? Drive all the way down here? And then what?” she rationally brought to my attention.

I did make it down for Zach’s funeral a few days later. It has snowed so heavily the night before I left town and my parents were worried about me driving in the snow. In fact, my parents always worried about me now. I couldn’t do anything without some kind of wary objection from my mother. Dad usually didn’t say much and left mom to do the protesting. It only made me grow angrier with her.

In hindsight, she had all the right to worry about me because I wasn’t ok. By this time, I had made friends in my new town that wasn’t all that new anymore because it had been well over a year, but they were not the kind of people a mother would hope her child would surround themselves with. Most of them weren’t bad people necessarily but they weren’t the best. They partied all the time, some of them clearly with more extreme drugs, and many of them were in and out of jail for possession charges, a few with assault or robbery charges. They weren’t very reliable people and my mother saw through them. I would come to learn this the hard way eventually after getting arrested myself on a few occasions.

--- 2011 ---

It took them 2 years to catch him, but not before he roped in 2 other known victims. In the meantime, I lost myself. I started heavily smoking weed and managed to get myself arrested for carelessly driving around and smoking with friends in my car. Having an open sexual assault case and no history of trouble prior to it, the prosecutor took pity on me and placed me on probation.

“She needs help,” I heard her quietly murmur to my lawyer. They put me on probation for 9 months.

I fucked that up. I couldn’t bring myself to stop smoking and not only did I fail a drug test, I managed to get myself arrested for a 3rd time for possession of marijuana. Who am I? I caught myself wondering as I stared about the courtroom. How did I get here? My probation was extended for another 16 months and I was ordered to spend 30 days in a substance abuse rehabilitation facility. It was hard to explain to the fellow patients and even counselors that I was there for solely marijuana. Literally every other person in the center was there for more hardcore drugs like meth, pills, or heroin. Many of them didn’t even believe me but it was the truth. The counselor I was assigned to, Christine, had also been sexually assaulted in her youth—but 4 times, each on a separate occasion. Holy shit!

At first I was happy to have someone I could talk to who would be able to relate to me. She told me how each time happened for her and they were all just about the same story. She would be out at a club or concert with her friends and get entirely too intoxicated and end up “unwillingly sleeping” with someone. I couldn’t believe my ears.

“I’m sorry,” I interrupted her, “did you say that you would unwillingly sleep with someone?”

“Yes,” she explained. “I would be so inebriated that I would blackout and be taken advantage of.”

I needed to get that clear. We continued on with our sessions for the month and I began to grow less and less content with talking to her. She seemed to not want to focus on my sexual assault and mostly wanted to talk about my “drug addiction.” I tried to explain to her that while I understand that I probably shouldn’t have been smoking the way that I was and I probably should have stopped acting so carelessly and recklessly, it was the rape that had bound me. It was to that guy that I was prisoner. It was because of this that I couldn’t get a hold of myself, I was still reeling from the effect of having a knife fixed to my throat and my entire dignity stolen from me. Couldn’t she, better than anyone, understand that it was this that I needed to focus on? I needed to learn how to cope and manage, how to face my demons so that I wouldn’t be tempted to numb myself with marijuana. But our focus was not here and for that, I grew more resentment.

Towards the end of my stay in the facility, an incident arose where she was accusing of sleeping with another patient. There was a boy my age, Max, who shared a liking for a local artist from my hometown and one day, we were out in my car listening to a burned CD I had – it was cathartic for us in many ways. Max was a good guy but he was a heroin addict. He had been through hell and I understood him so we became good friends. There was no romance between us, not even a little—at least, not on my end. A couple of nurses came out and saw us alone in car together with the windows down and a few days later, Christine confronted me about it. But it wasn’t in private and it wasn’t questioning, Christine blatantly accused me in front of everyone that I had been intimate with Max. Immediately, I became angry with her.

“Are you fucking kidding me, Christine?” I said, half angrily, half amused.

I would never have slept with Max, for one, and for two, I most definitely wouldn’t have slept with anyone in a fucking rehab facility. Her accusation made me feel like trash. She didn’t have the audacity or respect to ask me about what happened or why a few nurses might have come to her about us being alone in a car (with windows rolled down, mind you). No, she was certain it was true. I was so bewilder with her that later, in our private session, I brought it to her attention.

“Why would you ever accuse me of something like that without talking to me? And in front of everyone,” I exclaimed.

“I’m sorry I handle it that way, I shouldn’t have,” she said. But then she went on. I wish I could remember what she said word for word. Unfortunately, I can’t. I can summarize it however since I have yet to let it go. She basically told me that she would believe her staff if that’s what they said. I asked her if they said that they actually saw us having sex to which she said no and that they only said they saw us and told us to come inside.

“So it’s YOU who’s assuming what we were up to then?” I now accused her.

“Well, yeah,” a smug look came across her face.

Fuck you Christine.

I couldn’t forgive her and from this point, she would no longer be able to help me because I wouldn’t allow it. She couldn’t relate to me anymore and I suddenly felt like she never really could have to begin with because of the way she was described her encounters with sexual assault. Now, I am not going subvert that fact that this is still rape, but at the time I was still angry, I was still in a victim mindset, and I was looking for someone that I thought would be able to understand me--she could not.

After I left the facility, I was still fucked up mentally--more than I could ever express. I was always scared of everything and everyone. I would be walking alone someone and begin to fear that someone would attack me. A guy would express interest in me and if I didn’t reciprocate it, I became overwhelmed with fear that he would hurt me. I couldn't sustain a relationship at all, I tried. It’s not that I had trust issues and sensed that I was always being cheated on; it was because I dated complete dirtbags who would actually cheat on me and would suffer emotionally for my poor choices. And it also became entirely too easy for me to just disassociate with someone and disappear, never to talk to them again.

--- 2012 ---

I got arrested again for a DWI this time. I had gone out with some people and had taken way too many shots. I couldn’t even remember the incident, I just woke up in a jail cell, head throbbing and hand scraped to hell from the air bag deploying, and immediately knew what happened. I wrecked my car. Fuck. An office walked past the cell and noticed I was awake.

“You ok?” he kindly asked me.

“My shit hurts man,” I so brightly explained as I held my hand up to show him my wound.

He chuckled and said, “We had a paramedic take a look at it, you’ll be ok.”

“Thanks,” I mumbled.

Looking back, I wasn’t entirely too kind to him and he was nothing but. I regret that today. I was worried what would happen now that I’ve been arrested for the 4th time while on probation. I feared that this would be the last straw and I would be put in jail for an extended period of time. To my surprise, the judge decided to extend my probation by yet another year. It was set to be over on April 15, 2014. They had assigned me to bi-weekly meeting with a probation officer, a deep lung device that I had to blow into 3 times a day, community service, more classes, and to call a hotline Monday-Friday that would randomly summon me to take a drug test until the end of my probation. I probably took a drug test just about every other week, sometimes twice a week, sometimes days back to back. If I screwed this one up, it would be over. I would be going to jail.

On October 1st, the trial for my sexual assault case began. For an entire week, the prosecutors and defense called witness after witness to testify for or against Anthony. I learned long ago that this was not his real name and he had lied to me about it, but I couldn’t bring myself to know him as anything else. It turns out that Anthony lied to me about almost everything.

I was out walking my dog a few days after I moved to my new neighborhood. When I reached the park, a boy that seemed to be around my age approached me from the basketball court. He introduced himself as Anthony and asked if he could pet my dog, Domino. Domino was a puppy and, of course, was always attracting attention so I was used to strangers approaching me and wanting to pet him. He was nice and joined Domino and I on our walk. I told him about myself, my boyfriend, that I just moved here, etc. He told me a bit about himself as well and his family. We were the same age and had graduated the same year, his grandmother lived in the neighborhood and he usually stayed with her. We walked passed a house with a large iron star centered on the brick above the garage. He told it was her house and even talked about “that stupid star that [they] never could manage to take down.” At the end of our walk, we exchanged numbers and he offered me his friendship. He called me a few times but it was always late, so I figured he was just looking for a girl to hook up with, not an uncommon mission for an 18 year old boy fresh out of high school. I wasn’t interested though – I had a boyfriend, which I had told him about. One day he text me, asking if I could give him a ride to his grandmother’s house and he’d give me some gas money. He was on the way home from work for me and his grandmother lived in my neighborhood, sounded like a win for me since I was hardly deviating from my already planned course. Free money, basically.

What reason did I have to be suspicious? I had never encountered a human being with foul intentions before in my life; those kinds of things didn’t happen to me. I grew up in a small town, was well liked and a social butterfly, always the life of the party, responsible, outgoing--people flocked to me and I knew that. I may sound narcissistic to you now reader, but please understand, I was just proud of who I was and where I came from.

I picked him up from the other side of town; we got gas and began the drive to our destination. When we entered the neighborhood, he asked if I could swing around to a part of the neighborhood he thought he dropped his key. Naively, I obliged. It was a nice neighborhood, one of the fastest growing in the nation actually, and houses were being built at crazy speeds, but there were still areas that were not entirely developed, mostly just the roads had been made and the lots were waiting to be claimed. He directed me to an area like this. It was dark now, around 9 o’clock, we stepped out of the car and he began to search. There was a single lamp post that hardly lit the grassy ground he searched in so I walked over and suggested we go home and I’ll help him search for his key the next day. As we walked back to the car, I noticed from the corner of my eye that he reached out for me and withdrew. It was in that moment that I felt a glimmer of alarm and when we got in the truck and closed the doors, he attacked me.

When it came time for me to testify, I was so stone-cold and desensitized that I did it with ease. For the first time in 3 years, I got to look into his eyes. I was aching for this moment. I didn’t fear him at all because I knew that this time, it was me who had the power. Regardless of what was said, he had 2 other cases of sexual assault on him and all 3 of them were almost exactly the same story so there was no doubt in my mind that he would be found guilty in some sort of way. I had never met the other victims and one of them couldn’t bring herself to face him or stick around the court house. I did run into the other and she hardly spoke to me.

Was it my fault she suffered? I couldn’t stop thinking this. If I had called the police sooner, would she even be here facing the man that savagely beat and raped her at knife point? Maybe she blames me. Maybe she knows I waited a few days and blames me. He did beat her. He didn’t hurt me but he did her. Maybe he had told the truth that night. Maybe I WAS the first and maybe when I opened my big mouth and cussed at him, it just made him angry and he took it out on her. It’s my fault she’s here. Oh God, it’s all my fault. I wish I killed had him. I wish I was living with his blood on my hands, so that the other victims weren't suffering. I should have killed him!
He was sentenced to 62 years.

At first, I wasn't satisfied. I had hardened myself, which I was proud of. When they read the verdict, I knew that it meant he'd spend the rest of his life in jail but for some reason I just couldn't find it in myself to celebrate like the other victims and their families. I just kind of stayed quiet and people would hug me and I'd hug back but inside I was just wishing everyone would leave me alone and stop touching, stop talking to me so I could process this and figure out why I was so unsatisfied. After a while, we were on our way out and a sex crimes detective who worked with another of the victims approached me while standing alone in the lobby. She hugged me quietly and that’s when I lost it. I cried so hard I couldn’t breathe. After only a few minutes, we pulled away, her shoulder and my face wet with tears, and I apologized for breaking down on her. She didn’t say anything at first and just looked at me, studying me. Finally, she hugged me again and instructed me to call her if I ever needed anything or just wanted to talk. I kept her card in plain sight in my car for 2 years afterwards but never did call.
When we left the court house, my mom kept asking me where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do. I just didn't know--I was still upset and unable to put my finger on why I had become so emotional after the sentencing. I was speechless and couldn't even think, decision making was beyond my capabilities at this time. So I just told her to keep driving and she did. I broke down again once while we were out on the road and was really struggling because I didn't know why I felt this way. I had desensitized myself to this long before it came time for trial and I was more than ready to take the stand against him. I was not afraid. It had been a long time since I had had a crying spell over this and here I was, balling and unable to grasp the reason why. It was over! So I just stared out of my window, tears rolling down my face.
Then the funniest thing happened.

This young guy, probably mid-late 20's, with a dark beard and dark hair drove by in a new, white Silverado and smiled really big and goofy at me, waved, and then sped off. Only God knows why but it changed everything. The look on his face was hilarious and I couldn't stop laughing or smiling. When he sped away, it was like he took all of my sadness and frustration with him. I can't quite put my finger on why I felt the way that I did, but this guy just completely turned this dark emotion in me around and brightened up my day. I couldn't stop smiling and was so thankful that this random person did something so little but something so big for me that I drew a big "Thank you :)" on note book paper and held it up to my window when we drove past him, then it was our turn to speed off.

-- 2013 --

After the case was settled, things started to slowly look up for me. I had started working for a great company as an administrative assistant in January of 2012 and was still with the company. This was the longest I had held a job since the incident. I got back in school and started going year round, maintaining 3.8 GPA and was offered an invitation into the Honors Program. Since I was just a child, I wanted to be an attorney. I let go of that hope and buried it for the longest time after everything I had been through, thinking it was a dream that belonged to a different girl. I was starting to take my dream back. I was starting to get myself back, in fact. That bubbly, fun, goofy and outgoing girl was coming back to me.

I coasted through the year, working, going to school, staying out of trouble and doing the things I needed to do for probation. I had developed a good relationship with my probation officer by the time I got to this year as I had figured out that so long as I was doing right by the terms of my probation and genuinely trying to better myself, my officer was in my corner. Her name was Mara and I’ll always remember her. I started to look forward to going and meeting with her and would tell her just about everything. We would laugh at the goofy things I would do (I have a knack for collecting awkwardly funny stories of situations I would encounter in my everyday life) and I would share with her my concerns over old friends and habits that every now and then would resurface into my new life. She was always genuine and caring, offering up advice on how to deal with something I admitted to being unsure of and never seemed to let it damper her confidence in me. This continued on until the end of my probation term.

In the fall semester of school, I took a government class and met someone who has developed into a very special person in my life. His name is Mike and he was my professor.

I had gotten to school extremely early on the first day and was the first in the classroom. Mike and I began to talk casually and I stated how I loved the subject of government and planned on going to law school to which he told me he was also an assistant district attorney in the child welfare unit for Dallas County. I really enjoyed his class and he and I seemed to have a lot in common. I had always maintained interest in current events, law, and public policy, which was only amplified after my experience through the justice system as both a victim and defendant, and as topics would arise in class, I seemed to be one of the most active and knowledgeable students on the subjects. One day around the mid of the semester, an interesting article was published in the New York Times magazine and I had emailed it to Mike and simply stated how interesting it was and thought he would enjoy reading it. My signature on my email has my cell phone number and Mike texted me, saying it was interesting and was thankful I sent it to him. This began a never-ending conversation between us. We texted all the time, never about anything inappropriate, and began to learn more and more about each other. We had so many things in common. At first I was uncomfortable with my feelings. I had developed a crush on Mike and thought myself silly for doing so.

How cliché, I would tell myself, student developing a crush on the professor? Jeez, what a silly schoolgirl thing to do. Not only that, but I couldn’t fathom a good-looking, intelligent guy such as himself ever going for a girl like me. I was a criminal in the literal sense and had been through a roller coaster of drama in the past few years, there was just no way I was good enough for him. I told him a very summarized version of my recent past which I thought would be enough to deter him from me and let me move forward but it changed nothing. He didn’t judge me and we continued to talk just as we always had. A few classmates and I would go to dinner every now and then and one day we invited Mike to go along and he did. He started going with us frequently and once the semester came to an end, he and I started going alone.

The first time we ever went to dinner just the two of us was mortifying for me. We were in the middle of our meal, everything was going well and we were having fun, and then I had taken too large a bite of beef and started choking. As soon as I put the piece of meat in my mouth, I regretted it. Shit! I can’t spit it out, it would freak him out. I’m going to have to go through with this…

So I chewed and I chewed and I chewed. No chewing being good enough and finally braved just swallowing the hunk of meat and hoping for the best. The best did not come. Suddenly it got lodged in my throat and from there, everything happened in slow motion. Mike was talking and I was trying to listen to what he was saying but I realized that this damn chunk of cow in my throat wasn’t going anywhere. I tried to drink water, that didn’t help. I tried to take a deep breath, that didn’t help. Now the panic was starting to set in. I puckered my lips, straightened my neck, and brought my hands up to my throat to show that hey! I’m fucking dying over here! Mike didn’t seem to understand what I was signaling.

“Are you ok?” he asked.

Fuck no, I’m not ok!!! There’s a dead animal lodged in my throat and it ain’t moving! I tried to say this with my eyes but to no avail. I squeezed on my neck in a desperate attempt to get to the stuck food and thankfully, it went down. I gasped for breath and then sat, shaking and horrified. I told Mike that I just had a near encounter with death but now I’m good to go and the evening continued. I stayed shaken up for quite some time afterwards but mostly, I was just damned embarrassed. We were one of the first tables in the restaurant and by the time we left, we were the last. We sat there for hours just talking and finally got up to leave.

“This was fun!” Mike cheerfully said.

“Yeah, it totally was!” I returned. “Except for the part where I almost met my maker.”
Just then, I turned to start heading for the door and ran into a chair pulled too far out from the table and fell to the floor with a loud THUMP! Jesus, this guy is going to think I’m mentally retarded. But, I recovered as well as I could.

“I’m a bit of a walking disaster,” I told him, laughing at myself.

“Nah, you’re not.”

This was on December 28th and it was a great way to end the year.

-- 2014 --

Mike and I continued to talk just as much as ever and started to go out to dinner more frequently. He taught at the same time and in the same building that I had class and after school, we would go out. It started out just once every other week or so and has now developed into sometimes twice a week and us hanging out in the weekend. We both have a love for Star Wars and got into this game at a comic book store that we go to just about every weekend and play together.

Mike has been wonderfully patient with me. In all this time, we haven’t kissed and there hasn’t been any push for anything other than friends between us, but I can honestly say that there is something really beautiful growing between us. He has really helped me learn to stay strong and positive. I don’t think he knows how hard it’s been for me to do those things in the last few years.

In the months leading up to the end of my probation, my officer had me only reporting once a month. She offered for my last visit to be in March, rather than April, to which I refused and begged her for one last meeting. I planned on giving her a really nice card telling her how thankful I was to have her help in getting my life back on track and I wanted it to seem genuine. She cried when I gave her the card and hugged me. I tried to sneak a gift card for dinner but due to their policy, she couldn’t accept it. I think she gestured really touched her though. On April 15th, just 10 days shy of the 5th anniversary of my sexual assault, I was released from probation.

--- April 25, 2014 ---

I woke up and carried on my day just as I would any other but there was a shadow that crept behind me throughout the day. In moments of silence, I would find myself in utter disbelief that it took me 5 years to get to where I was. I remind my mom what day it was and she and my father remained close to me throughout the day. I was thankful for that. I have mostly grown to let go of my anger for my parents and had developed a good relationship with them. They were a major role in keeping me strong and sane. Had I not had the kind of parents who were always behind me, no matter what, then I don’t know where I would be, but I venture to guess that it wouldn’t be here. Mom and dad took me to lunch that day and told me how proud they were of me. It felt so good to hear. They had said it so many times in the recent year but today it really took hold of me.

I spent that evening alone. For some reason I couldn’t really explain, I just didn’t want to be with people.
When Joe and I broke up back in 2009, I gave Domino away. I had loved Domino so much but couldn’t bring myself to hold onto him. He was mine and Joe’s dog and he was the dog that brought Anthony to me. It was too painful to keep him. A year later, I got a new puppy – a German shepherd that I named Dante (named after Dante’s Inferno, a favorite book of mine). Dante and I were inseparable from the day I brought him home. He is absolutely the most loyal, loving dog anyone could hope for and was that way from the beginning. In 2011, my brother gave me a kitten, who I named Rogue, after a character from X-Men.

Dante, Rogue and I became a family. Every night we sleep together in bed, Dante at my feet, rogue by my side. When I come home from work or school, they are both waiting to greet me at the door. Rogue will rub against and meow loudly, as if yelling that he’s glad to see me, and Dante will whimper and stand on his hind legs and wrap his paws around my neck to hug me. I taught him to do this when he was just a puppy and now, it’s a part of our ritual greeting. Together, they will race up the stairs ahead of me and wait at the top step for me to catch up and then both turn to run to my room and hop on the bed. It fills my heart with joy to have them. They love me unconditionally, no matter what I do, say, or what I’ve been through. Without them also, I would not have been ok and that night, they stay exceptionally close, as if they knew that something was bothering me.

--- April 26, 2014 ---

It was Saturday and I woke up early since I had gone to sleep so early. Dante was still in bed with me and Rogue was about the house doing his usual morning cat thing. Mom and dad had left the house early as well to go run errands and wouldn’t be returning until later in the afternoon. I was grateful to have the house to myself that morning.

I went downstairs to make some coffee and sat down on the barstool as I waited. Suddenly, I felt as if a weight had been lifted from me. It was as if realization had set in.

5 years it took me to learn to be me again.
5 years it took me to learn to be whole again.
5 years it took me to learn to be happy again.

I cried and cried but this time, they were not tears of sorrow. I called my brother who sat on the phone with me and just listened as I spilled to him the emotions that were flowing through me. He told me he was proud of me.

Now, I was happy. I was liberated.

Finally, I was free…

479. Date: 01 May 2014

Anorexic Dream
I wonder if you’d want to know
I named all of my demons after you and
they haunt me in my sleep

when I was 14 I fell asleep in April and dreamed of bones and
I’m not sure I’ve really ever woken up since

when I lost 5 pounds I never saw a difference

when I lost 10 my mother said I was looking good

when I lost 20 she told me to stop and handed me food
and I became anemic

when I lost 25 I stopped drinking anything because
I felt water had calories

when I lost 30 my mother held me on her lap
and held my bones together for me

when I lost 35 I started fainting every morning and
the doctors could no longer easily find my blood pressure

when I lost 40 people started to stare and food made me cry

when I lost 45 it hurt to walk and to lay down
it hurt to eat
it hurt to breathe and
I started throwing up my empty stomach

the mind plays tricks on those that decide
nourishment is not needed

Eat.

(http://hellopoetry.com/oldstarsigns/)

478. Date: 01 May 2014

Don't ever fall in love with a poet
because they will indeed watch your every move and admire
they will write about how the pen marks on your finger when you write
don't ever because they will trace
every single freckle you have on
your face and write about the color of each and every one of them and
describe how they smile so brightly
under the sunlight they will want you
to want to know every little thing about them even if it's just what hand they write with and want you
to be wondering why they write with that specific hand when in
reality it doesn't even matter
the poet will watch the way you dig
your eyes onto that book and your small quick remarks onto the 26 letters all crumpled together and will know that everyday at 5:28 you smile
they will look deeply into your eyes
to see if they can at least take a little
peak of your soul and they will write
about you like if you were the only
thing they see good in this world
they will want to know what you think
about when you look at them and
see if you also count each and
every freckle and hope and write
that you do but they will
love you endlessly and they will
show you that they love you and only you but don't date a poet if you aren't
capable to watch them and
admire their imperfections
when they sleep late at night
beside you

j.f (http://hellopoetry.com/jacqueline-flores/)

477. Date: 30 Apr 2014

Never frown!! You never know who might be falling in love with your smile :)

476. Date: 18 Mar 2014

Wishing time travel existed and that I had a time machine. I could change so many mistakes and some bad choices I've made. Will be glad when this age is over and the battle is finished.

Yours truly,

A fellow drifter.

475. Date: 08 Mar 2014

Hey ...
I need to talk with a girl ;)

474. Date: 29 Jan 2014

Yo nig.

473. Date: 21 Dec 2013

Some Unknown Horizon...

Closing my eyes, I hesitantly offered you my open palm,
desperate to feel the comforting warmth of your delicate fingers.
Chin down, then face steered towards the street-lit ceiling,
neither felt right, or helped, as I struggled to conjure up your divine perfume.

I silently waited, with my breath held and heart racing,
fighting the encroaching realisation that I would receive no reassurance from the empty room before me.
"This is stupid" my lips taunted, disturbing the forgotten music playing quietly in the background,
and a wave of sudden insecurity awakened my clammy touch.

Angrily I smeared my damp grasp down my jean, a gesture which fractured my tired brow,
highlighting not only my sleepless hours, but the anguish I had failed to hide from you at the terminal.
But that was when I saw your smile... Of course, when I was least expecting it,
when my body was failing, and my mood was black, of course you appeared then.

Oh and your beautiful, beautiful smile, and I saw you with such intensity and crystal clarity,
and in that single moment, my sadness was forgotten and I was not standing alone.
Without a word, you were in my arms holding me tightly, placing that yearned-for hand behind my heart,
and I too drew you closer, cradling your head beside my own where I could feel our cheeks connect.

How I had longed for this perfect embrace, desiring your body and the sublime tonality of your voice,
now separated from me across some unknown horizon by those grey metal detectors...
After the music had faded and stopped, our swaying slowed, and I dropped my arms as I opened my eyes,
I cannot recall how long I had stood alone, but your unforgettable smile was left on my lips.

472. Date: 17 Dec 2013

Some Unknown Horizon...

Closing my eyes, I hesitantly offered you my open palm,
desperate to feel the comforting warmth of your delicate fingers.
Chin down, then face steered towards the street-lit ceiling,
neither felt right, or helped, as I struggled to conjure up your divine perfume.

I silently waited, with my breath held and heart racing,
fighting the encroaching realisation that I would receive no reassurance from the empty room before me.
"This is stupid" my lips taunted, disturbing the forgotten music playing quietly in the background,
and a wave of sudden insecurity awakened my clammy touch.

Angrily I smeared my damp grasp down my jean, a gesture which fractured my tired brow,
highlighting not only my sleepless hours, but the anguish I had failed to hide from you at the terminal.
But that was when I saw your smile... Of course, when I was least expecting it,
when my body was failing, and my mood was black, of course you appeared then.

Oh and your beautiful, beautiful smile, and I saw you with such intensity and crystal clarity,
and in that single moment, my sadness was forgotten and I was not standing alone.
Without a word, you were in my arms holding me tightly, placing that yearned-for hand behind my heart,
and I too drew you closer, cradling your head beside my own where I could feel our cheeks connect.

How I had longed for this perfect embrace, desiring your body and the sublime tonality of your voice,
now separated from me by some unknown horizon, and those grey metal detectors...
After the music had faded and stopped, our swaying slowed, and I dropped my arms as I opened my eyes,
I cannot recall how long I had stood alone, but your unforgettable smile was left on my lips.

471. Date: 27 Nov 2013

I miss my motorcycle. It's in shambles because I failed to brake correctly when a moron on a scooter came flying towards me. Managed to avoid a head-on collision but hit the curb and went face-down on the sidewalk. Not a scratch on me, just some muscle ache the next day, but my bike is total loss. As a Dutch song states: "A man doesn't know what he misses, doesn't know what he misses, until she isn't there, only then a man knows what he misses". It sounds better in Dutch, but the message is so true.

Now I'm going to have to fall in love all over again :( Maybe this time it'll be a real girl. Though my last attempt at that failed miserably as well.

With both bikes and women I have had deep relationships lasting many years. Until some sort of stupid accident happens that totally ruins everything.

470. Date: 13 Nov 2013

HIIII!!!!

I don't know you but I can see from your eyes that you don't believe you are beautiful. So fair enough, we all have our insecurities, but who gets to decide what is beautiful and what is not? All of the standards are set by us and usually the majority of people. But the majority of people are also easily affected and brainwashed. So be who you always wanted to be, respect others, but never obey them unless you agree with them.

ATTACK THE DAY!

469. Date: 15 Oct 2013

Dear Amanda,

I know that you're angry and spiteful with the things I've done. I accept that fact. But I don't want to lose you in my life. Ever since we broke up, I couldn't get you off my mind. I lost half of my heart. My girlfriend and my bestfriend. I'm sorry that I didn't realize the things I've done sooner. Maybe we could've prevented the breakup from happening. Those moments we shared together were real and those memories will stay forever in my heart. I still read the letters that you wrote me. Thus making me a silent sobber still. After all the things we've been through, I know there's still a place for me in your heart. I love you, and I will always do, to infinity and beyond. I miss you so much. Things aren't the same without you in my life. I made so many mistakes, maybe because I was afraid of losing you and now I did. If you're reading this right now, I want to thank you for taking your time with it. I'm gonna end the letter here. Good night.

Sincerely,
Jc Mabunay

P.S.
We may not be together anymore and you may not want to be my friend as well. But I'll always be here waiting for you.

468. Date: 30 Sep 2013

I love new york!

467. Date: 29 Sep 2013

2013 A.D.
If humanity fails and we nearly destroy ourselves and in the highly unlikely event that this is the only thing found by our descendents, just follow this simple rule in order to avoid repeating our mistakes:

Don't let hate and that which cannot be proven guide you. Try to understand each other, respect each other, and maybe even love each other.

LEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEROOOOOOY JEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENKINS!

466. Date: 27 Aug 2013

Everything will be ok in the end.
If its not ok, it's not the end.

465. Date: 24 Jul 2013

I'm scared about the relationship I'm in, because I just realized how much I miss the beginning of relationships a lot. It just makes me want to go out and fall in love with someone new to feel that thrill again. The thing is, though, I'm already with someone who I really do love. I just miss getting to know him. Or the feeling of touching someone new. I can't do this every time I start settling down with someone.

464. Date: 24 Jul 2013

I'm tired of feeling like I can't do better. I know I can. I cut it really close to being kicked out of school, because I just don't try. And the thing is, no one has high enough expectations for me to think that I'll fix it. And because of that, even I believe that I'm bound to fail. I need to know that I can do better, that I can push myself to get out of bed next year at school and do well in my classes. I want to prove everyone wrong, but I likely won't be able to.

463. Date: 17 Jul 2013

BALLS!

462. Date: 14 Jul 2013

I am so lonely! I was married but left because it got so bad. Wish i could find my one true love that knows how to treat a woman!

461. Date: 01 Jul 2013

a phone call..
that's all i'm waiting for..

a phone call that starts with, "we have good news"..
a phone call where they make me an offer for that new job.. don't even care if it pays the same as my current one..

a phone call that will get me out of my miserable job..

come on.. ring.. just ring..

460. Date: 04 Jun 2013

I love my partner. We have been happily together for more than 10 years. However, I find that I am also very attracted by other women. I have discussed it with her, and she says that I can do what I want as long as I am honest with her, and I stay with her and love her in the long run. She is more solid than I am, and I feel that she truly means it. Yet, I have not been able to move forward so far.

I could just go and meet women. I am reasonably well built, and can be a nice man. But would I be disrespectful of them? How to break the ice? To be honest without being blunt? To avoid hurting feelings? My partner's and other women's? I know that they are online sites dedicated to this, but, believe it or not, I am a fairly romantic man and I don't feel attracted at all by these venues.

Am I the only man like this?

I feel that I must fairly common, but that means our society is pushing us to hide this behavior. It seems that I cannot come to terms with my own contradictions. I am lucky to be with my partner.

459. Date: 25 May 2013

I don't want to continue at this job but apparently I have to have a baby next year, so we will need the money.

458. Date: 28 Apr 2013

Hello, try my computer game out at www.runesketch.com I made it as a hobby.

457. Date: 26 Apr 2013

You are who you are, let nobody change it.
Stand up for what you believe in and what you believe is right.

Remember that in light, there is always dark.

You are a burning flame in the hearts of everyone around you. Let nobody extinguish that flame!

456. Date: 25 Apr 2013

Well, it's never possible to plan for every eventuality, so even if you've made a 'plan', there will always be obstacles in the way. That is simply a fact of life and it's something you have to accept. In fact, the more aware you are that things can go wrong, the better prepared you will be to cope with them.

Don't think of your plan as 'the exact way you have to do things', but as milestones you'll be working towards reaching. That way, if one path is blocked, you can find another one and still reach one milestone before progressing to the next.

Can I ask what kind of emotional issues you're facing?

In response to:

It's about emotional issues.You make a plan for your life and go on upon it but suddenly things just go out of control.It's like life wants to show you that you can't control it.It feels like your soul is being smashed.

455. Date: 24 Apr 2013

This week, do something that scares you!
And let me know what it was, ok?

454. Date: 23 Apr 2013

Dear girl,

Thanks for writing to me.

In your message I see a lot of positive things shining through, even though you might not see them in the difficult period you're going through now:

- You write you're completely different from many others your age - that's amazing! You have the courage to be authentic while most of your schoolmates are struggling to fit in. This makes you a hundred times more interesting human-being and your life a hundred times more adventurous and wholesome.

It reminds me of a Native American saying I hold close to my heart:
Let us behold the turtle: (S)he moves forward when (s)he sticks her head out.
It's only when we let go of our fears and follow our own path, that we can grow! (and enjoy it)

- You write you've been in a relationship with another girl for nearly a year - congratulations, it's great to be in love and you've been together for a long time!

- You write you wanted to go to the formal with your girlfriend - I admire your 'why not?' attitude. The best attitude in life is indeed not caring much about what other people think of you. Those that matter to you will respect you. Those that don't matter might not, but they don't matter.

- You write that a friend asked your girlfriend to the formal. She said yes but only because she was not thinking. She likes you so this doesn't have to change your relationship at all! It's just a formal. It might save you in fact from having to go through it: formals are overly polished, arduous and hormonal all at the same time, not the best combination. Now you're free to make your relationship known to the world in a more exciting way, at a less constrained occasion!

Dear girl, please stop worrying about the formal. Let your friend and girlfriend go together, nothing will happen. Or tell your girlfriend how much you'd like to go together with her. She'll understand, feel flattered and cancel on your friend.

In any case: Keep being you. You sound like a brave woman.
Keep loving your girlfriend, she sounds like she's worth it.

And behold the turtle. :-)

-

In response to:

I need emotional support. I'm a girl at the age of 14, in the 8th grade, completely different from many others my age. I'm currently dating another girl, and we've been a pair for nearly a year now, but our relationship has been more secret than most. In one month, the 8th grade formal is coming up, and I was planning on going with my girlfriend, because, well, why not? But a close friend of mine, who didn't know about our relationship, decided to ask her to formal. She said yes without thinking. I'm in a bind. I questioned him, and he REALLY likes her. And I just don't know. I've been crazy depressed for the last few days, planning out various attempts of suicide, none of which I've actually succeeded at. I'm in a horrible wreck and I just need support, please.

453. Date: 15 Apr 2013

You are single and wherever you look there are happy couples.
You are in a relationship and wherever you look, single people look like they are having the time of their lives.
You get drunk...and you worry about nothing.

All is in the mind, tame that and you have tamed the world.

452. Date: 05 Apr 2013

This is my first time to write message for stranger.
What to write?
I am 25 and still be nothing.
And writing this with a bit drinking.
I like watching movies and collecting the photos of animal.
I wish you will write me back.
So now I'll back to what I should do,drinking more!
Bye!

451. Date: 02 Apr 2013

I think I hate my "best friend". She's manipulative and self-centered. How do I get away from her?

450. Date: 01 Apr 2013

little bear is in your pocket wherever you are Daddy bear

449. Date: 23 Mar 2013

I feel so insignificant, just a tiny organism on a tiny rock in the vast depths of space. Ofcourse there are other forms of life out there, probably intelligent life. WHen we die, we just stop, nothing else happens.

448. Date: 19 Mar 2013

I know I might not know much, but this I do know: Waste no time, takes lots of pictures with those you love, laugh a lot and make others smile. Chase after your dreams and if your dream is money, then so be it, as long as you won't step on others to get there.

Don't do to others what you don't want to be done to you!

447. Date: 18 Mar 2013

I just wanted you to know that, if life is hard, you can get through it. Whether it be a bad day or a bad week, or anything, just know that someone out there cares for you. If you don't know anyone, look harder, because someone is always going to be there for you. I care, a strange person on the internet cares so much about you, and just wants you to be alright.

If you're having a good day or week, please know that someone out there needs an extra boost, and if you want, you can give it to them. Whether it be a simple smile, or a conversation, even a little difference can help.

Have a great day or evening! <3

446. Date: 12 Mar 2013

I am so tired of the must's. You must get a good grade, study hard, be a good citizen, smile a lot, be sociable, have lots of friends, be well liked, know who you are and know what you want from life. But no! Don't take too many risks, don't hope for too much and don't think you own everything in life. What if I have no clue what I want from life and who I am exactly? I learn about me at every moment, but I am always discovering more things...And sometimes I feel blue..Isn't that okey? What more am I supposed to do? I want variety and challenge in life, I don't want a boring desk job.

I am sick of your have to's and obligations. I only want to follow my heart. And my 'wants'. So stop trying to change me.

445. Date: 07 Mar 2013

wowowowowowowowowooww

444. Date: 06 Mar 2013

You are loved by the people around you. You are an amazing person. Don't ever forget that. <3

443. Date: 05 Mar 2013

I woke up laughing this morning - god knows why,
had an impatient question
of bliss.

Always yours,
---

442. Date: 23 Feb 2013

i had sex on the roof of an occupied building
under the moon light
with the love of my life

i swam in the sea

the best week of my life

i hope you had a good one too

441. Date: 23 Feb 2013

Life is the most beautiful thing of life. You just need to squeeze every juice out of it! and if you don't ..... that's alright! just smile with your self! when you meet your love of your life she/he is not going to ask for grades, trust me! YOGA YOGA YOGA that's what changed my life! or walk, that's exercise too. fuck the pc fuck fb fuck laptops, life is not digital. iloveyou

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I'm tired. No, really, too long I've been the small guy, the person watching on the sidelines, not anymore. This life was meant for living, not dying every single moment over a couple of small things. Who cares if people think I walk like a half-dead person or have no potential for anything in life? I'm not going to let my ship fall into the abyss, I'm going to take control of it like I damn well should!

...This is how I feel every single day, but I forget everything the moment I go to sleep, only to wake up to another day of people's jeers and false motivation to make my life better. My grades are terrible, I can't even climb a few stairs without huffing and puffing. All I need to do is get off of my damn PC and go exercise for a bit, or maybe study a little, but I can never muster up the willpower to do it, and I don't know if I ever will...

440. Date: 23 Feb 2013

Why, thank you! I wish you the same

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I wish peace n happiness to whomever gets this modern day oldschool message :-D

439. Date: 22 Feb 2013

Hello there fair stranger. As long as you stay near the people you love and show them you care they will appreciate it. And yes it hurts to want someone and know that you can't have them, but at the same time you get to see her often and you get to hear her fears. It's not that bad. And there is never only one opportunity in anything. Remember that. And stay strong :)

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I think I have a crush on my closest girl friend. Every time we are together, I just want to hold her and protect her from all the bad things that are trying to pull her down. But.. She has a boyfriend. And I can see on her face, that she truly likes him. And that he truly likes her. And that they make eachother happy, like, really happy! I just want what is best for her.

If she's happy, I'm happy.

438. Date: 22 Feb 2013

Thanks for the emu-enlightenment. They sure look like funny creatures on google images!

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Hi, I would like to take this time to inform you about the most superior animal of all: the emu. The emu is a majestic creature that is native to Australia and is known to roam the harsh Australian desert with great ease as it can run at speeds of up to 75km an hour but on average around 50km. Did you know that emus cannot walk backwards? Yeah who needs to walk backwards when your an emu? This just goes to show how brilliant they truly are.
Thank-you for your time, I hope that I have enlightened you about the greatest animal on earth, if you feel the need to argue with me on this statement I would like to direct you to google images where you can search up emus and just wondrously gaze upon nearly endless images of emus and you will no doubt change your mind.

437. Date: 22 Feb 2013

Other people are like the roof of your mouth. Just because when you can touch them and it makes you laugh, doesn't mean they aren't just another part of you.

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Explore your limits, push them a bit harder, change your routine and challenge yourself.
That's how you know you have lived.
And it's okey if you get hurt in the process, the wounds will heal and you will have learned.
Don't be afraid to live!

436. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I think you just answered your own question!

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Fuck. Why don't I have friends? Every night I'm inside wasting my life on the computer, even my mom said I'm wasting my life. I should be outside with friends doing stupid things and having fun.

435. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I am not an expert on this but I recommend you not let him see that you are little afraid. Make sure that you smile a lot. It is true that smiles are contagious. Also you should try and distract him a little. Try and do a hobby together or go exercise together. Anything to stop him from thinking and worrying.

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I've pretty much just quit my job and I'm a little afraid. But mostly I'm afraid because my husband's afraid. I'm not as nervous about it as he is. I feel positive, but sometimes some anxiety creeps up on me. How can I transfer my (general) positivism to him?

434. Date: 21 Feb 2013

If someone has all the locks to your keys and all the keys to your locks, you'll know it.

433. Date: 21 Feb 2013

To start with, I’m so sorry that you’re feeling as you are at the moment. It must be awful, and I can sympathise with feeling like you’ve given a lot and don’t have much to show for it but a clean conscience.
You sound like you have your head screwed on right and aren’t willing to mess people about or go around hurting girls just to have a good time. I’m glad about that. You said that people just assume you’re happy enough: tell them if you’re not! It’s okay to be down once in a while and I’ve found that people see you as being more human if you are. Do you have family or close friends nearby? I’m living away from mine at the moment and finding it really tough. I don’t have much family left and always feel like something is missing anyway, but it’s especially apparent now.
May I tell you where I’ve spent most of today? In a nursing home for the elderly. Most of the residents there have some form of dementia, mainly alzheimer’s, and rely on the staff for things you wouldn’t believe. They’ve had a lot of life between them, but right now I’d bet that if they could see themselves properly, they’d swap with you in an instant. I don’t mean that to be flippant about your situation, nor am I trying to make you feel guilty. I just think it’s always good to get some kind of perspective on things. 30 isn’t even half way there! You’re waiting for the perfect person to come along but you have to look for her, and don’t just base it on looks. She’s probably as keen to find you.
I’m pretty sure from what you’ve said that you’ve been doing well in life in general, and you must have achieved a lot to be proud of. How about you focus on YOU for a while and see where that takes you? Do something crazy – do a skydive, take up tai chi or take a week off work and go to a place you’ve never been every day of it. Take comfort knowing a stranger cares?

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I'm a guy lost in every possible way. I thought I did the right things, took the right steps, respected and cared for people when I could, yet as I reach my 30th birthday I realize I have nothing and I have no one who loves me around me. I have been nice to every girl I have come across in my life. My life has been surrounded by people falling for the wrong guys who cheat on them, lie to them, take advantage of them and disrespect them, and my reason to be the one special guy for a special girl out there didn't exactly work out and loneliness and cries when no one is watching or around are the only things that happen to me anymore. Sometimes I remember my mother's love and miss any kind of love around me. Having never touched alcohol, even my body is healthy enough but my inside is empty and there is a big void. Beautiful girls walk past me all the time, almost everyone seems paired or happy or living with purpose, Even the caring smile of someone beautiful to me will be enough to get me going for months. Nothing seems to ever happen no matter what I do or say or how nice or funny I am. Sometimes the only solution i see is death. From a happy well composed young man i have become a lonely not so young depressed guy.. and dare i say a big loser. People think I am doing fine because they are so busy and only get to see the 5 min smiling face i provide them with. If I knew who she was who would be in my life, i would go back to being me and become someone like no man has ever been. If such things ever happen...living is not for me anymore... :(

432. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Yes, I am a procrastinator too and trying to break the habit, here's a few tricks though. Start on everything early. Take it as a challenge of sort. Like you are playing a game. So that when you get one thing done you can move on the next. Get 8-9 hours of sleep a night. No more than a hour of games a day when you have things to do, don't lie to yourself about getting it done. These videos are also motivational http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4GcusXA069I http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yX39J_YyKbs . You need to take everything you do personally. You are a person of fate or destiny. Things wont simply just work themselves out. You are screwing yourself over. A third of your life is taken away by sleeping. With good exercise and eating habits you have 75 years. Without you have 50 years. How many more years are you going to waste with your life on earth? You are who you choose to be. So go out there and do the best you can be. Just keep in mind though you made get bursts of energy to go ahead and go do stuff but you cant just go in bursts you have to constantly go otherwise you will become weak and sick and I know sometimes when you do try hard again you get knocked back down. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Z5OookwOoY . Id love to hear back from you. Cheers!

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Hey! I've just read an article about procrastinating on the BBC and despite knowing that I am a procrastinator and really really really wishing I wasn't, I find it very difficult to quit the nasty habit. Even if I do make a list of things I need to get on with, I will inevitably go back to facebook or some other random activity which sucks away my precious time.

Are you a procrastinator too? Be honest. I guess the chances are that you probably are. Have you tried 'quitting'? What methods did you employ? Were you successful?

I look forward to hearing your stories!

J

431. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I've pretty much just quit my job and I'm a little afraid. But mostly I'm afraid because my husband's afraid. I'm not as nervous about it as he is. I feel positive, but sometimes some anxiety creeps up on me. How can I transfer my (general) positivism to him?

430. Date: 21 Feb 2013

21 people this evening probably wont return home, thinking about the calm flowers, their smell can make our heads spin like a wild tornado, but without a border, or a strong walls we are unstoppable. we could be all as one, but we all divided by the invisible glass, slowly but surly turning it into the mirror. routine killed our imagination and closed most of the doors that leading our spiritual existence into the freedom. strapped in a cage of your own personality, what a funny way to die, 6 people probably will drink a poisonous water, thinking that they can free themselves from this insane world, but perhaps they are right. only the universe will know, but perhaps it will not? sending my smiles to those who will connect their conscious to mine, 21 people this evening probably wont return home - they will visit the calm garden filled with wild flowers, spinning their heads with the dreamy smells.

429. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I'M DANTE THE DEMON KILLER
HAS A NICE RING TO IT DON'T YOU THINK?

428. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Explore. Open up to new experiences that push your limits.

When you're on the bus, get off two stops after the one you actually wanted. Explore, walk around. We all say we know the areas we live in. But do we?

When you are at your favourite restaurant, order something different for a change.

If someone asks you to listen to a song that isn't your 'type', try to be open minded to it. It's not your type until you let yourself listen.

Don't be afraid of new things. Be afraid of the routine that settles you in, that makes all days the same and that makes you wonder ''Where did the time go?"

427. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I dont suppose you know a good recipe for salmon mousse?

426. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I dont suppose you know a good recipe for salmon mousse?

425. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Explore your limits, push them a bit harder, change your routine and challenge yourself.
That's how you know you have lived.
And it's okey if you get hurt in the process, the wounds will heal and you will have learned.
Don't be afraid to live!

424. Date: 21 Feb 2013

A couple of days ago I was lost, hopeless, there was nothing but emptiness inside and outside me. I was just a shadow and the hours passed over me while I could just stare at the screen that blinked every now and then behind my watered eyes.
At some point, I tightly hugged the pillow and hide under the blankets, falling into an uneasy sleep...

Two days, went away to never come back. The same two days that Syria disappeared from the world, and with it, you.

A couple of days ago, I realized what is really important and what is superfluous

423. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Wisdom from a five-year-old: Most grown-ups, when they're sad, they're sad in their heads, because they don't want others to know that they're sad.

How did she figure that out?

422. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I want to be your bag of bones,
a skinny knee across your thigh.
I want to be able to tease you with my lankiness
and draw you into my curves with ease like the beautiful girls do.
I’d take my light finger tips and drag them across your skin
sending ripples of light through each pore,
taking some of me and giving it to you.
My hair would fall right where I wanted in that moment,
covering one eye and sliding down my cheek,
shimmering like newly shaken dust particles dancing in sunlight.
I would take my tender ear
and place it on your heartbeat and feel you
-thump thump-
for a moment and breathe in the air you own around me.
I want to arch a sickly body and tear open my ribcage
so I can offer up my soul
and allow it to pool up in the awkward spaces from which I am absent
so you can feel me,
and dive in.
I want to be your bag of bones,
a dying arm across your pillow.
I want to be your dream, your cigarette child.
I want to be the one in which you find the dawn turn into mourning.

421. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I sometimes feel like humanity has no hope anymore. While everyone sits around, speculating about the future utopia, I roll my eyes and realize that we're all savages to the core and will end up killing ourselves on a massive scale.

420. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I sometimes feel like humanity has no hope anymore. While everyone sits around, speculating about the future utopia, I roll my eyes and realize that we're all savages to the core and will end up killing ourselves on a massive scale.

419. Date: 21 Feb 2013

To follow blindly, to melt into the menial is robotic, lifeless. To question, to confront, to be vulnerable, that is but a hint of the essence of existence. Shall we always be on the fringes of our worlds, our circles, never to plunge full outstretched, head first with no thought of return? This presents a fear only equalled by the release of finding ourselves standing feet planted tall on the other side. Of course the difficulty will be to find the pond to plunge your life energy into, more so when it appears as an sea, vast and all consuming. Most days I don't mind that I will only ever be a drop in the water.

The metaphor should be extended to the physical. The sea. I fear it. It puts us into perspective, it is the birth of all life, with no borders, no walls and no defence from itself. It is complete freedom, but would we be lost, us that need to build a home. Do its inhabitants have homes, do they relate to certain parts, do they take comfort at a given murky depth?

To the sea.

418. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Ciao amico.

417. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hi :)

I hope your day is going well. If it's just beginning then try to make it special. Wear something colourful, make someone else smile, extend a helping hand. If that is not your cup of tea to make you happy then do something else. Listen to what you would really like to do instead of go to work. Play on your PC, watch a movie, go to the top of your building and scream. Or bake baby muffins. No, without real babies. Just treat yourself to something nice!

416. Date: 21 Feb 2013

silence your mind. sense your body.

415. Date: 21 Feb 2013

My name is Rebekah, and I am a panda.

414. Date: 21 Feb 2013

If you're feeling down today, just remember: you have as many Tour de France titles as Lance Armstrong :D

413. Date: 21 Feb 2013

If you're feeling down today, just remember: you have as many Tour de France titles as Lance Armstrong :D

412. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Don't let people hold you back from doing what you want. It can be hard, and is for me. But fight, fight until your dying breath.

Godspeed.

411. Date: 21 Feb 2013

She thought she could be different, but every moment passing by made her realize how wrong she was. She thought of the words that chilled her bones:

" Man is born crying, lives complaining and dies disappointed."

You, whoever you are, wherever you are, try to be different. Change the things you don't like. Smile at the randomness of it all and make others smile.

Nobody lives forever.

410. Date: 21 Feb 2013

hey there. I thought I know my future, i do not. what the hell am i going to be? draw for god safe, draw.

409. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hello,

The internet is vast, perhaps too vast. But no matter, the world is smaller than it seems. You are the luck/unlucky person to receive my message, how do you feel? Hopefully good. You're looking good, honestly. Could use a change in clothes sometimes. But who knows. Maybe that style's in this year. With Christmas coming up, it's always a great deal of good to compliment someone. Hope the rest of your day is great.

Sincerely,
The Sparrow.

408. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Is this world really about slaving away? Is there no more to life than working a 9 to 5 just to get by? Aim higher. Follow your dreams. Take a chance. Who has the right to tell you no? The only person that can and will stop you is YOU. Life is too short for regrets. Start today. You CAN do it.

407. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Every time you fall asleep you die, and a new entity awakes in your place with your memories, lives for a day, and the cycle repeats. Evidence. When you are born, you receive a drug naturally produced by the brain called DMT. When you die, you receive the same drug.
You also receive this drug during REM sleep.
A DMT trip is the transition between life and death.

406. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I took an anthropology class a few years ago and on the first day, my professor came into the classroom and wrote this quote on the board that I will never forget. He wrote, "People do not react to the word the way it really is, they react the way they perceive it to be." This saying has stuck with me. It made me realize that no matter what we've been through, we can only be who we allow ourselves to be.

It's amazing how a simple wave after accidentally cutting someone off can defuse a situation, allowing someone to get in on a busy road when no one else will, or a smile at someone who looks down can change their entire day. I can not be the only person out there who is so deeply impacted by such a friendly gesture.

From now on, I will strive to just be kind. I'm not perfect and I may not practice this all of the time, but I am aware now and will make the conscious effort to bring light as well. Thank you for the kind words and thank you for seeing the moral of my story.

405. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hiya, I'm a 13 year old guy from Australia! I'm just gonna go ahead and guess that if you've found this, you're probably just as bored as I am right now. Here, enjoy some cats: http://procatinator.com/

If that doesn't fix your boredom, I suggest you watch some Collegehumor on YouTube. That usually works for me. I mean, most YouTube videos cure my boredom, but Collegehumor is particularly time-wasting. No, I'm not being paid by them, I'm just suggesting it.

Harry

404. Date: 21 Feb 2013

HELP I'M TRAPPED IN SOME CREEPY DUDE'S SERVER!

403. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I had my heart broken by the same woman, three times in the space of a year. I opened myself up more than I could have ever imagined and I have learnt a valuable lesson about giving everything you have to another person.
I have been rebuilding myself since, slowly and tentatively whilst trying to forget about the princess I loved who turned out to be nothing more than a black castle.

402. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Ignorance is bliss,
knowledge is pain,
Now i know i was her mistake.

401. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I worry not about death but not having lived once i die. I don't want to die with nothing wrong. The closer you are to death the more alive you are. I want to die falling apart, that way i know i have lived my life when i die.

400. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hi my name is David, im 19 years old and i live in Austria :)
This is my message in a digital bottle to you :DD
I dont know where you live, who you are or if this digital bottle will be opened sometimes... But i want to write with you, if you receive this message :)
Much love from Austria

-David

399. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Isn't this a nice day? There is so much stuff in the world, and you are part of it. So go out, and explore, Resident of this wonderful world.

398. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hi there. I am doing pretty cool things with my life and I should be proud, but I still have residual creeping sensations of shame and dissatisfaction. Part of this is because I am bipolar; I am on very successful medication but these types of medications have a cyclic nature. Perhaps I am heading downward in that cycle. Also, maybe I'm the kind of person who's never satisfied?

397. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I haven't met another person who loves sports and Disney like I do. I'm not sure I ever will and this makes me sad.

396. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I hate where my life is going, yet I feel ashamed for having those thoughts. I have a shitty job and I'm desperate to go back to school, but I feel a sense of doubt everytime I try to apply. I'm often told I have no direction in life, but that's only because my parents have decided to take it over for me. I want something different; I want to live life on my terms. Where do I start?

395. Date: 21 Feb 2013

when was the last time we walked around without money in our pockets or a cell phone in our pocket? We're to glued to the media and we've become consumers rather then people.

394. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Big things start with small, from an individual ! I had the most stimulating day today and feel the need to share this . Dont be afraid of your big inovative ideas . Just do it ! There are always some people, organisations who can help you with it , support you (financially) . You can do unbelievable !! !!!!!!!!!!! Dont be scared of unsuccess. Those things happen , and so ?

393. Date: 21 Feb 2013

You are young... and your bitter recollections have time to change themselves into sweet remembrances.

392. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Look up. Look behind this screen. What do you see? People? A wall? A window? Your wife cooking? Or is it other people studying in the library?

Whatever it is, appreciate it. Because you can see it. And if you want you can touch it, or be part of it, or change it. Be part of every moment. And when you find yourself rushing through life, rushing through work and rushing through chores then pause for a second and look around. Because the world will NEVER be like this again, this moment will never come around again.

Sometimes, less is more and the little things might surprise you.

May the force be with you :D

391. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Sometimes, i feeel like there is no reason for me to keep living. then i look at my family and my friends and realize that without them i would be nothing. killing myself will be selfish and cause so much hurt.

390. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I'm tired. No, really, too long I've been the small guy, the person watching on the sidelines, not anymore. This life was meant for living, not dying every single moment over a couple of small things. Who cares if people think I walk like a half-dead person or have no potential for anything in life? I'm not going to let my ship fall into the abyss, I'm going to take control of it like I damn well should!

...This is how I feel every single day, but I forget everything the moment I go to sleep, only to wake up to another day of people's jeers and false motivation to make my life better. My grades are terrible, I can't even climb a few stairs without huffing and puffing. All I need to do is get off of my damn PC and go exercise for a bit, or maybe study a little, but I can never muster up the willpower to do it, and I don't know if I ever will...

389. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Eat a goat. That's the best thing you can do right now. Then, go do the cha cha.

388. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I once saw a man vigorously humping a fire hydrant. He looked happy.

387. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I really have a problem with getting up early, I wish I could just do it. I could go to bed at 7pm the previous day; nothing helps. I just hate it so much. I don't get up late, but I feel awful, soul-crushing pain when I have to wake up. How can I get over this?

386. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Life is what you make it. Don't ever feel like you're down and out, things may not go your way, but don't ever quit . Everyone's in a tough spot sometimes. Everyone can pull through to a happier place, and there's always a glimmer of hope, even in the darkest darkness. Live, don't just survive. Everyone can achieve excellence, but perfection doesn't exist. Do your best, and if you fail, try again. Learn from your mistakes.

385. Date: 21 Feb 2013

When you're lying on your death bed, will you be glad that you watched so much TV?

384. Date: 21 Feb 2013

There's probably no heaven. There's probably no hell. There's almost certainly no god(s) judging us. The only way we live on is in the memory of those that survive us. This is it. You get one chance on earth. So try not to be a dick.

383. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hello friend.
I'm Nadia. And I'm from Denmark. I'm 16 years old, and I'm living with my mom, my dad and my sister. This is the only family I have.. besides my two dogs, Ludvig og Luna. (Actually I also have two cats, how could I forget? Anyway they're called Sidse and Jeppe). I know that this information is totally useless.. but I don't know, I feel like sharing my personal life atm.
I would like to know, who's reading my lovely personal message? Oh well, I'll have to wait.

Maybe I can teach you some Danish? Ok, then.
Well, let's start in the small. When you greet other people, you say "hej". It's pronounced exactly like the english word "hi".
I don't know your sexuality nor if you're a man or woman, boy or girl.. or both. But I know you like boobies? Why? Because EVERYBODY love boobies. So if you meet a lovely lady, with a nice set of tits in Denmark, you can say "Det var da nogle utrolig flotte bryster, du har dig." Which basically means "That's som incrediblely nice breasts you've got you." and it's pronounced.. well, it's hard to explain and I'm definatly too high to think straight.
I would recommend you to go to www.reddit.com/r/trees and post my AMAZING letter.

TOKE UP ENTS, HEHHEHEEEEE

Love, Nadia.

382. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Don't force it.

381. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hi, I would like to take this time to inform you about the most superior animal of all: the emu. The emu is a majestic creature that is native to Australia and is known to roam the harsh Australian desert with great ease as it can run at speeds of up to 75km an hour but on average around 50km. Did you know that emus cannot walk backwards? Yeah who needs to walk backwards when your an emu? This just goes to show how brilliant they truly are.
Thank-you for your time, I hope that I have enlightened you about the greatest animal on earth, if you feel the need to argue with me on this statement I would like to direct you to google images where you can search up emus and just wondrously gaze upon nearly endless images of emus and you will no doubt change your mind.

380. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Osama Bin Laden gets trash talked a lot. Yeah, I know he killed like lots of people, and he is responsible for some shitty stuff, and he was a major dick, and he deserves to like be admonished, but you know he had hopes and dreams and stuff. He was a guy. He ate food and watched sunsets, even though he did it while planning ways to kill people, that was just like his way of blowing off steam. Like when you imagine punching Fox News anchors in the face, only he actually did that to human beings, and with airplanes.

Osama also saved me from an abusive relationship.

Let me backtrack.

When I was 19 I began dating a significantly older man—he was 34. He was also sort of a prostitute? He was unemployed and broke (he was a total catch) so he had sex with his ex-girlfriend and she payed his rent and gave him phones and stuff. It was made clear from the very beginning that he would be doing this and because I was 19 I said, "Okay, that sounds like a great idea." Plus I was mostly just excited to be having regular sex with someone attractive. Even though he was conceivably old enough to have been my father, and even though we had differing opinions on what is "sexy" and what is "violent abuse", the relationship was pretty good for a short while.

One particular night around the beginning of the end of our relationship, we were at his apartment in bed, and we were trying to have sex. I was totally not into it, and he was on top of me just kind of going at it, and as I lie there, I let my mind wander. I think this happens mostly to ladies when the sex is not so great, I mean, when men let their mind wander the whole thing kind of ends. Ladies don't need to worry about keeping their vagina hard or anything to actually participate in sex. My mind wandered far enough that I forgot where I was for a moment and I let myself sneeze. He bursts out laughing and looks down at me and asks, "Did you just sneeze?" Um, no, it was the cat. "Yes. Sorry?" He laughed, rolled out of bed, and made fun of me a bit. He picked up his phone, and after staring at it a bit, he showed it to me.

It said: "Osama Bin Laden is dead."

We got up and watched MSNBC on his computer, read some news articles, and he called his parents. He grew up in New York City, and lived there on 9/11 and had like friends in the towers and stuff, totally terrible kind of memories that he didn't like to talk about. Finally this man was dead. It was a big deal to him.

After a while, he said to me: "We should have celebratory sex." I said "okay," naturally, even though at this point sex with him was sort of a stupid ordeal. He told me not to sneeze this time.

We got into the bedroom and he said "I want you to blow me." I said: "Sure, absolutely, yes, because your sweaty unshowered ballsac slapping against my chin is so much fun for *both* of us!," but because I was 19 and he had taken away my courage I actually just said "okay," and got down on my knees.

I was used to having bad blowjob sessions with him (and, by the way, I just want to point out, he was the type of person who "did not eat 'pussy'"), but this night was particularly awful. I was embarrassed and miserable and he was *really* excited about Osama being dead, so excited that he got a bit too ambitious with his thrusts and I gagged and threw up onto his penis. I cry whenever I throw up, because I'm sort of very afraid of it, and when it happens I kind of go into shock. So I'm crying, wiping vomit from my nose, and laughing because he's so distraught and like upset and he's just processing the vomit on his junk and it's hilarious and satisfying to me to see this man—who I at this moment realize I hate—covered in vomit.

This begins the spiral end of the relationship—the last few turbulent weeks before I realize that I deserve better and all that.

Around September, after we'd broken up for good (we had one relapse and a time spent as "friends") and exited one another's lives as much as possible, as I thought about the situation, I realized that I was abused. I didn't realize it inside the relationship, and it's hard to—you love a person, and you have this idea of them in their head as someone who has faults that you overlook out of love, or maybe you are just so heartbreakingly lonely and full of selflessness that you want to tame or take care of these horrible people and love them out of pity, or maybe they treat you the way you think you deserve to be treated and you don't even realize that you're being treated like shit and you don't care, and you have some tenuous surge in confidence or self-appreciation for a moment and it rushes to you that you deserve better—but once I realized that I was in an abusive relationship, I realized that it was Osama Bin Laden that was responsible for putting me into the situation where I realized that I needed to get out. Of course, he also put me into this situation, by convincing people to fly planes into buildings, which led partially to my ex-boyfriend's eagerness to move to Indiana when he got the opportunity not long thereafter.

This would have probably ended the same way without Osama's interference. But he *did* interfere, and it did end when it did, and I have Osama to thank.

379. Date: 21 Feb 2013

"The goal of life is to die young--as late as possible."

378. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I spend my days walking through the trail by my house. The colorful trees and the falling leaves are signs of winter approaching. The brisk air hits my face. Why? Why is there trees? Why are there seasons? Why is there a wind? Why do I have things I don't need. I don't need a phone. I don't need technology. I don't need a car. I don't need a job. I don't need education. I am an animal. An intelligent species. All I need is food, air, water, and sleep. Why do you want more than we need? Humans are the only species that will never be happy with what is given to them. We haven't even figured out why we even exist in this infinite universe to be worrying about the new and upcoming phone in stores now. What the one girl said at work you didn't like. When humans learn to become at peace with the simple things our species really needs, we will become peace in our minds, souls, and bodies. The next time you feel you just need those new headphones, just think... I don't need this to be happy. Then, you will be at peace.

377. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Evageline stepped out of the life pod. Her spaceship had crashed on this unfamiliar planet, and her escape pod had landed in a tree. She didn't know where her parents were and her communicator didn't work. She found herself on the branch of a strange type of tree. It was completely different than the holodisk images she had seen of earth trees, this was soft and smooth, with deep midnight blue bark. The tree seemed to be breathing, pulsing with a soft rhythm. The leaves were the same color as the bark and were shaped almost like hearts. She started to climb down, her loose flight suit catching on branches. Once she fell, but the branch almost seemed to catch her and set her down. At last, she reached the forest floor. The grass covering the ground waved in ripples despite the lack of wind. There were strange plants everywhere. Shrubs with glowing orbs at the end of slim tendrils, trees that seemed to be composed of ever shifting red strings that hummed an unearthly tune. She walked down a small trail and came upon a clearing. She had seen no sign of the crash or her parents. She sat down and stared up at the lavender sky, a large ringed planet taking up and entire quadrant. She thought of her home, and her parents, wondering if she'd ever see them again. Her lip trembled and she began to cry. She sat in the clearing, a scared eight year old girl on a strange planet. Suddenly, she felt a soft touch on her arm. She looked up in surprise and saw a sleek, eight legged creature. its face was feline, with large wispy ears. it had a long prehensile tail with finger like graspers at the end. Its body was covered in soft, green fur that seemed to shine with bioluminescence. It squeaked softly and licked her hand. "who are you?" she asked it, but it only stared at her thoughtfully. "you're cute. are you lost too?" the creature climbed onto her lap and stuck it's tail into her pocket. "hey, thats mine!" she said as it took out her vita-bar. "are you hungry? we can share." it mewed at her in response. She took the bar, and unwrapped it. She gave half of it to the creature and ate the rest. "you're friendly. i think ill call you... meep." it crawled up onto her shoulder and licked her cheek. She giggled and hugged the little creature back. "come on, i have to find mom and dad." she stood up and started back towards the forest with her newfound friend meep on her shoulder. As she walked through the strange jungle, she knew that whatever happened, she would be okay on this new, beautiful planet of furry, glowing, animals and odd plants.

376. Date: 21 Feb 2013

So I woke up this morning, and I don't believe what I saw -- a hundred million bottles washed up on the shore. Seem's I'm not alone at being alone; a hundred million castaways are looking for a home.

For some reason I don't believe this Police quote is all too original, but oh well :D

Also the ipad should be table sized.

375. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Tally ho, stranger! Adventures await you, my newfound friend. For soon all that you once knew will be gone, and before your eyes an unseen landscape is yours for the taking. Do not falter; for time is of the essence. Take not what does not belong to you, but belong to all that you take. I anticipate the stories of your travels, friend!

374. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Some days I feel really lonely and confused.. like the life I have somehow carved out for myself isn't what I imagined it to be and I look around and feel like everyone else seems to be doing OK and have it together and maybe it's just me. But it isn't. I have student loans and a dog that doesn't always know to not pee on the rug in the bathroom and hair that sticks out in strange ways and sometimes I think about what I'm going to do after I graduate and nearly give myself a panic attack but I just want somebody out there to know (even if you don't have a dog with an active bladder, impending graduation, weird hair, and loans) that things are pretty awesome once you realize how little that stuff really matters. I called my mom today and we talked about our favorite books and she said she loved me.. my puppy learned how to roll over and a little old lady on the bus told me she liked my dimples and I mean, yea, my student loans may be a BIG bad thing, but sometimes I think the little things, all strung together, matter quite a bit more.

373. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hello fellow person,

Have you ever thought that Doritos are just flavored tortilla chips? Just think about it.

With lots of love and jam,
Neisa Y.

372. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hey, so as it turns out life is pretty awesome.
Yeah, I mean there are gonna be times - more than a few - in which you feel like shit.
But goddamn if my life hasn't been the most interesting story I've ever experienced (with the possible exception of The Dresden Files book series, because they are just fantastic works of literature).
So long story short, respect the life you've got. Love even the sad moments, because they're just a part of the great whole. Live for the happy moments, and value every second of them. You know, just... appreciate that life is pretty great.
And for the love of all that is good, don't forget to have fun with it.

371. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Dear stranger. I am having the time of my life right now. I have a girlfriend, I have nice friends and I am doing well at school. I do miss my friends from the PH. Sometimes, the time of your life can be quickly brought down by problems that keep plaguing you. It's senior year and its gonna be time to go to college soon. Extra curricular activities are killing me since it feels like I have over committed myself. Plus I have no money or license on how to dive a car. Ahh the pains and problems of growing up. Still, even though something bothers me from time to time, I keep a thought to myself - someone, somewhere around the world, someone is having a worse day than me. So be happy stranger, whoever you may be! Smile and surround yourself with friends that like to keep you company! Thanks for taking your time to read my thoughts :)

-b

370. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hello,

I hope you're having an amazing day.

369. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I'd just like to say a few (perhaps cheesy) things to you. Whatever may be bugging you, no matter how big, or how small, you have the strength to get past it. At times you may doubt your strength, but look deep down in there. Look at how much you've already overcome in your life. You've got the strength to stand up tall, chin held high, and let another day smile upon you. Because each breath, each ray of sunshine in the sunrise is a gift. And we're all so lucky to be given such a gift.

Have a fabulous day. Nay, have a fabulous life. Make it EVERYTHING that you could wish it could be!!

368. Date: 21 Feb 2013

The most astounding fact in the universe. I wish everyone in the world would watch this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9D05ej8u-gU

367. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Are you feelin' blue stranger?
WELLP HERE YA GO.

http://i.imgur.com/UcIfM.jpg
WHAT'S HE DOING UNDER THERE? :D
http://i.imgur.com/qTymo.jpg
HE ALL "WHAT THE WHAT?!"
http://i.imgur.com/rNJQL.jpg
FREAKING AWWWW!
http://i.imgur.com/Tt78l.jpg
KEETTTEENNNNNSZZ!
http://i.imgur.com/S7n5z.jpg
BOY IS HE POOPED!

.......
Have a beauteous day. c:

366. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I hope I find work soon. I'm afraid of losing my tiny home and my five cats.

365. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Enjoy life. It's pretty good really. :)

364. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Life isn't great, and it doesn't get better. People try to make it better. And life keeps moving on because of these little tries that people do. But here I am, sitting, not making a difference. So I am actually writing this to say that you are a great person and that you deserve the best, even though I don't know you. Tell something beautiful to somebody everyday, make them feel good and happy. Don't get angry about money and other material stuff, those things don't matter. You matter, people matter, the things you feel matter.

I hope you have a good sleep or day, since I don't know in which part of this planet are you.

363. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Salut je suis à la recherche d'une femme entre 25 et 40 ans, qui soit drole, et a un sens de l'humour, et qui aime le sexe, et vivre une relation libre sans lendemain

362. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I like to travel to NY!

361. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Even if you think that you don't understand people, truth is maybe you didn't try hard enough. Because when you get to see things through their eyes, you see that it's your fault and your flaws that brought you here. But we learn the most about ourselves through the eyes of others. So just take a minute each day, step out of your shoes and see the world from another perspective. It's worth it!!
Have a lovely day :)

360. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I think it's an admirable goal to want to be with someone forever, but I don't think that it necessarily should be the primary focus. Sometimes I think we get kind of hung up on the idea of commitment to the detriment of happiness, which I've never really thought makes much sense. I suppose it isn't possible to know anything about the future, but I think it's worth trying to have relationships. They might not last forever but while they do you get someone to share your life and secrets with and at the very least you may get some very happy memories. That's got to count for something right?

359. Date: 21 Feb 2013

You are alive because millions of people have done things for you, directly or indirectly. Someone made the chair that you are sitting in, the roof that you are sitting under. When you get ill, someone fixes you up so you don't die. When you are hungry, you eat the meat of animals that someone raised and the fruit of trees that someone planted. You can read this because someone took the time to teach you how to read. For every little thing that you do, there is someone out there to thank.

Think the amount of effort that went into ensuring that you are alive. What have you made of it? What have you done in return?

358. Date: 21 Feb 2013

You've forgotten about me, or maybe you thought I was never real to begin with, but I am, and I still roam the streets of Edinburgh.

Yours,
The George Square Fox.

357. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Seven years past I met a girl.
Six months ago we talked about buying a flat.
Five days later she asked me what I thought about marriage.
Four seconds were all it took me to tell her that was what I wanted
Three minutes afterwards she told me that she loved me, but she wasn't 'in love' with me any more.
Two weeks straight she has haunted my dreams every night.
One hour ago I stopped fighting an urge, and walked past her house, just so I could feel like
Somewhere, she is there, in this world, even if she isn't in mine.

356. Date: 21 Feb 2013

We train young men to drop fire on people. But their commanders won't allow them to write "fuck" on their airplanes because it's obscene.

355. Date: 21 Feb 2013

日本人です。
私はさびしい

354. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Stop thinking about it and start doing it.

353. Date: 21 Feb 2013

The best kind of happiness is one which arrives for no apparent reason whatsoever. And the worst kind of sadness is similarly baseless.

I'm happy today, and I don't have a clue why :)

352. Date: 21 Feb 2013

This is an autobiographical poem I wrote a year ago visiting my home town again:
Alewife Dreams

Girl, sprouted up in Tillberry Town
Her roots winding unwillingly around the buildings
For lack of anything else to wind around
She took her water from the mighty Androscoggin
Cleaned up now,
And with a dam
Made only to block the fish
She dreamed them flying with parachutes over the cool cement
And so to the river,
And so to the sea,
And so to the world,
And so back to her dreams

Rough walls scrape off the Alewife scales
Glimmering on rocks, and baked.
A hundred years from now they will study the waterbed under this bridge
And find a sparkling layer that says “We were here.”

351. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Never waste your time with friends who don't put the same effort into the friendship. I've had the same group of friends since elementary school and I'm finally saying I'm done with them.

I'm moving on to a group of friends who actually like me for me, who will actually call me and include me without extra effort on my part, and I'm finally going to go for a girl who I can be myself around.

This marks the turning point in my life of conformity. I'm officially a new man. 10/28/12.

350. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Hey there!

This is my first message in a bottle. But I felt like I needed to write this down anyway, for not only myself, but for YOU, whoever is reading this, as well. So here goes:

People are going to put you down. They will look at your ambitions, your goals, and your dreams and say: "that's impossible" or "that's just a pipe dream". They might even dare say you're not good enough to their own personal standards. DON'T LISTEN TO THEM. The only person in this world that knows you better than anyone else, IS YOU!!! Tell all the "haters" and people who disagree with your visions of YOUR future to go shove it--you can see the brightness behind the door; YOU can see the light at the end of the proverbial tunnel. So go. RUN. Run towards the finish line, the light, the end, and don't look back! You have only one life to live, and not only I, but God encourages you to live it to the fullest and pursue what you believe is the best for your future.

Chin up. Life is about to get a lot more fun now, huh? :)

349. Date: 21 Feb 2013

The internet is a taste of true freedom.
It is a little reminder of how great things can be when everybody is accepted and can find someone that agrees with them,
But it is also a reminder of the hate that can breed, and the terrible people that can use freedom and anonymity as a way to hurt others in ways that can't be stopped.

Appreciate the internet, as it gives you ultimate freedom,
but let it always remind you why life cannot be free like the internet.

348. Date: 21 Feb 2013

I need to keep my mind occupied. I can't think about him, I shouldn't think about him. This is like a prison, I can't run from myself, I can't run from my thoughts. Every time I fall asleep, I imagine him holding me and smiling at me...We would talk everyday through facebook messages for hours, about everything, silly things, serious things, funny things... We were so alike. I saw him in person a few times, but those were the best times of my life. I loved him with all my heart, I still do, even tho I don't want to admit it. But we are far away, it wouldn't work out. I was the one who decided to stop our friendship. Sometimes, when I'm by myself, I regret this decision. But I will not turn back, I closed him the door, he will certainly do the same to me. I wouldn't blame him for that. I know that no matter how hard I try, he will always have a place in my heart.

347. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Well, let's just get writing.

I'm currently attending college right now, with a traffic ticket sitting over my head, and I am not exactly having the best luck with finding a job right now...and yet, I still have my head held high right now. Why, you may ask?

Because...I'm honestly not sure.

I'm still here, breathing, and that just happens to be something miraculous in and of itself, right? And you reading this, just imagine: You are ALSO still breathing here, and that is a miracle. Out of ALL the things that COULD have happened to you at any time in you life, and here you are, reading this message, still alive.

No matter how rough you have it, just know that you are worth more than the entire universe to someone, and even though you may not know that person, they do exist.

I don't want to drag this on too long...but thank you for reading this, and stay awesome, you beautiful, wonderful, person you!

346. Date: 21 Feb 2013

Looking for a distraction? Try learning this shoelace knot:

http://www.fieggen.com/shoelace/secureknot.htm

Once learned, it's pretty quick to tie and undo, but great at staying done up, even with slippy round laces.

345. Date: 17 Feb 2013

How do you know when you find that magical something that you want to do the rest of your life? Do you feel it? Are you supposed to know it from childhood? Does it suddenly hit you or does it slowly dawn on you?

I feel lost. Lost in the things I ''must'' do, the projects, the exams, the tests and the good grades. What will that give me if I don't even know what I want? I want to travel. And be free. But I don't know how to do it...I will need money, so I will have to work first, but what if I die before making my dreams come true?

"Be the change you want to see in the world". But there's so many things I would like to change. Where do I start? Am I the only one feeling so lost and adrift in a material world that feeds on its own corruption?

A desperate soul.

344. Date: 15 Feb 2013

Valentine's Day is over - don't have any regrets.
Lent is ongoing - if you can, keep trying.
New Year is long gone - still keeping your resolutions?

At the end of the day, it doesn't matter.
Be happy with who you are.
And remember that your friends are always by your side.

343. Date: 14 Feb 2013

I have already spent nearly half a year in this city and I still cannot believe how much I have learnt, changed, discovered and grown up in this time. This second step away from home is only the warm-up part for a life abroad : next September, I'm moving further East (and North), before finally flying to the other end of the world by next year to begin my dream-career. I had no clue how difficult and challenging leaving home for this long would be. Moving away made me realise how important some people are to me, how beautiful home really is, how I took tiny little things for granted (like fresh croissants, the comfort of my old bed or my cat's morning greetings when I went downstairs)... However, it also gave me the opportunity to discover so many things, and gave me a sense of wonder which, I hope, will never leave me. I have learnt that, no matter where you are in this world, there will always be someone to look out for you, to talk to, to enjoy a drink/cigarette with, to love, to dance with and/or to marvel at the world's beauty with you. Here, I have met people who have taught me how to let go, how to dance the waltz, how to love, how to make bread, how to appreciate every minute of the day (/night) or even how to open a beer bottle with bare hands! I have had to deal with the unfamiliar cold, homesickness, a parent in hospital I couldn't visit, falling in love, living in a country where I don't speak the official language, and quite a bunch of other tricky stuff. These last few months have been no picnic, but by Golly were they the most life-changing months of my life, and I am so, so grateful to be where I am right now.

My point is : it is always worth to jump in. Whether it's flying away to an unknown land, telling someone you love him/her, trying a new recipe/sport/hobbie, giving up on something, being the first one to do a couple of moves on the dancefloor, it will always be worth that first shove. No matter what.

So never forget you are worth it. And that you CAN do it. There may be some unexpected bumps along the way, but that's just part of the fun of trying something out. What you get out of the experience is definitely worth a few scars. So go on, dive in, give a try to whatever you have always wanted to do, and you will see a whole new world open up to you.

Good luck! Everything is going to be fine!

Thinking of you, always,

xxx

342. Date: 14 Feb 2013

با انزژی به کارت ادامه بده
خسته نشو

keep doing
Don't bother

341. Date: 02 Feb 2013

Just wanted to say hit to who ever you are.

340. Date: 01 Feb 2013

Hey
I don't know you.
You don't know me
We don't know eachother
But I want you to know
That you are an amazing being
Now you may think ''This is a joke, everyone says things like this''
But Im serious.
If I met you,
I would find something good in you
No matter what
Everyone has something, that others like
I can find something good in my enemy, so I can find something good in you.
It's not that hard.
Now sit down for a moment.
And think.
What makes you a special person?
Are you smart?
Are you...good looking?
Are you REALLY good at stacking cups?
Just think.
And don't stop until you have found something.
Kay?
Good.

339. Date: 27 Jan 2013

You take what is offered, and that must sometimes be enough.

338. Date: 27 Jan 2013

I think honest communication is what keeps a relationship strong. Humans are Fallable! They can be very deceitful at times, in fact, the more common relationships I see today is what motivates me to write letters such as this. Everyone swear's that I have to fucking someone....because they feel guilty when the subject of abstinence fills the room, because they know they could n't go two years without sex/dating/needing someone. People tend to project their weekness on me and try to take the attention off of themselves, I understand that it's the weak who do this to me, out of envy/their personal hell/Their own insecuraties! I speak my mind;so if I see a Lady that is absoutley breath Taking, I will comment to the Lady, as a gentlemen, completly respectfully make their girl smile. Men are so insecure, they get mad rather than saying thank you. If someone respectfully tels my Lover / my Lady/ Wife, I would say thank you and actually feel complemented myself for beleving with such a lovely lady. I believebeing honest about what you do , regardless of the consequences, to your lover is the best thing you could ask of your partner...if you fuck up, for whatever reason, I know I want the girl that will come tell me she was with someone else, if that were the case. That's is respect for one another, that is 100% honesty. I really hate that girls try to be what they think I want, rather than who they really are., I WOULD LOVE TO FINDS SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS THAT THE MOST YOU CAN GIVE TO SOMEONE IS ALL YOUR LOVE AND pROMISE THAT IF THE HEART CHANGES, WE WILL RESPECT EACH OTHER AND BE COMPLETELY HONEST ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS...ESPECIALLY IF YOUR LOVE FOR THE OTHER CHANGES!

337. Date: 23 Jan 2013

Hope you're working on something fun. Shall try to follow your advice next time I have something creative I need to do.

In response to:

If you can, try to work at a time when you are most productive. I can't help it - it's nearly midnight, past my bedtime, yet I'm feeling pretty productive.

336. Date: 22 Jan 2013

If you can, try to work at a time when you are most productive. I can't help it - it's nearly midnight, past my bedtime, yet I'm feeling pretty productive.

335. Date: 14 Jan 2013

The purpose of our lives is to be happy. So smile and bring the sun to someone's life :)

334. Date: 06 Jan 2013

My best friend has always philosophically said
'happiness is a journey, not a destination'
I think it is my favourite saying. Said friend and i often chat about how we never seem content with what we have at the minute and spend too much time thinking about the future. Then today i came accross a card with this printed on it and thought i would share on here as well as with friend- thought someone else might appreciate it....
For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin- real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life, this perspective has helped me to see that there is a way to happiness. Happiness is the way, so treasure every moment you have and remember time waits for noone. Happiness i a journey not a destination- Souza.

333. Date: 28 Dec 2012

Dear receiver, godzilla is attacking! please help!
http://imgur.com/e51Gb

332. Date: 27 Dec 2012

Eat more carrots

331. Date: 25 Dec 2012

yuo are feget

330. Date: 24 Dec 2012

It is, at this point, a well-established fact that absolutely nothing matters.

Inevitably, you will die, everyone you know will die, everyone who knows everyone you know will die, everyone related or descended from you and everyone you know will die, the country you were born in will die, the language you speak will die, your species will die, the star you orbit will exhaust its fuel and burn out like a cinder, and then every star in every galaxy in the entire universe will do the same until there is nothing left but the empty and the cold and the dark.

Nothing you do will matter, no, nothing you do CAN matter.

But that's the thing isn't it?

The question you should ask isn't, "does anything matter"

The question you should be asking is, "does it matter if anything matters?"

Because if literally nothing matters, then, logically, everything matters exactly as much as everything else.

So go do whatever you want, because if it makes you or the people you love happy, then it's more important than anything else in the universe.

329. Date: 24 Dec 2012

It is, at this point, a well-established fact that absolutely nothing matters.

Inevitably, you will die, everyone you know will die, everyone who knows everyone you know will die, everyone related or descended from you and everyone you know will die, the country you were born in will die, the language you speak will die, your species will die, the star you orbit will exhaust its fuel and burn out like a cinder, and then every star in every galaxy in the entire universe will do the same until there is nothing left but the empty and the cold and the dark.

Nothing you do will matter, no, nothing you do CAN matter.

But that's the thing isn't it?

The question you should ask isn't, "does anything matter"

The question you should be asking is, "does it matter if anything matters?"

Because if literally nothing matters, then, logically, everything matters exactly as much as everything else.

So go do whatever you want, because if it makes you or the people you love happy, then it's more important then anything else in the universe.

328. Date: 17 Dec 2012

I sent this to my family, and now I send it to you:

'I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times, in life after life, in age after age forever.' -Rabindranath Tagore

327. Date: 08 Dec 2012

You're perfect just they way you are!

326. Date: 08 Dec 2012

I love you <3

325. Date: 06 Dec 2012

Hey babes :)

324. Date: 06 Dec 2012

One day your wife will cheat on you because you'll hold less value as a human being as you age. She'll never admit it.

323. Date: 03 Dec 2012

Gods, she doesn't like me like i like her, its killing me, don't fuck around with love.
Still love, live and have a great life, i love you, and you are awesome, have a great life.

322. Date: 01 Dec 2012

follow me on youtube!
youtube.com/faultofdan

321. Date: 29 Nov 2012

Instead of spending each day searching for the meaning of life and trying to change the world, try to enjoy what you already have. Smile to people and change the things you don't like about your own life. Someone once told me that where there is will, there is a way. So find the way, and don't complain!

320. Date: 28 Nov 2012

There is a pleasure in the pathless woods,
There is a rapture on the lonely shore
There is society, where none intrudes,
By the deep sea, and music in its roar:
I love not man the less, but Nature more,
From these our interviews, in which I steal
From all I may be, or have been before,
To mingle with the Universe, and feel
What I can ne'er express, yet cannot all conceal.

It's by George Gordon Lord Byron. This post was inspired by the first two lines, which I've spotted on written on somebody's rucksack.

319. Date: 27 Nov 2012

Get off the internet.

318. Date: 27 Nov 2012

Drugs are fun, but sometimes they are anti-fun.

317. Date: 27 Nov 2012

My life will actually start next year.

Well at least I hope it does.

316. Date: 26 Nov 2012

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315. Date: 25 Nov 2012

My name is Alec Fardd, a young lad from 19th century (1829) Wales. At the age of 9, I moved to London, at the time, the capital city of Birttania. However, when I was 24, I was conscripted into the royal army during the start of the Crimean War. My good friend, Pierre Garchounde of Marseille, served alongside me during the tour of Bessarabia and the nearby forests, however, he was shot in the head before even 5 months were through. By the time the war was over, nearly 130,000 had died between the French and British, though I had made through barely a scratch. Following the atrocities I had seen during the war, I moved from London to the American province of New York and settled near Albany in 1859. Though, a few years later, the American Civil War began and my prospects for keeping my peace were shattered. I fled to the American southwest, where I settled in the place later known as Globe, Arizona. I made acquaintance with a German immigrant named Annett Schneider, whom I later betrothed in 1866. There, I again became acquainted with firearms, as I had in the Crimean War, though not for blood sport. Following a show group called the "Sun City Sliders", I rose to fame in and around Arizona. In 1870, I was again on the move, this time with the exhibition group on a tour through Midwest and onto the capital of the United States of America, Washington D.C. I met President Grant, who apparently knew Mr. Garchounde, of the Crimean War, through mutual friendship. We had talked, and, remarking upon my excellent firearm capabilities, offered me a position as a Presidential guard, as it were. I declined, and returned to Arizona in 1876 with over $24 000 US dollars to my name from touring. I retired to my home in Globe and remained there for 15 years, working as a clerk in a local shop. In 1891, I was hired as a professor of Military History at the newly opened, University of Arizona. Though the dean was not fond of my firearms, he permitted demonstrations of their usage. I taught at the university for 11 years, when in 1902, I passed away. Or so I thought.

I had awakened in a dark room. "What was this place?", or so I wondered. I was again, out of the consciousness and was awoken by my sweet Annett. Pierre was there too. Nothing quite made sense as I was told the date; the 25th of November, 2012. And so, here I am; I was told to recount in summary my story and I am now publishing it on this mechanical device. Only time will tell as what will come, and how I became here. I am Alec Fardd... Or am I?

314. Date: 25 Nov 2012

No matter what happens to you before the end of the year. Be joyful and know that the best is yet to come.

313. Date: 24 Nov 2012

Hello world. I just wanted to tell you to be happy. Even if it's just for a moment a day, sit back and think about the things that make you smile, or the things that make you forget about any hardships you may be experiencing. Even if it works for only a brief moment, your day will be ever so slightly better off than it was to begin with.

312. Date: 24 Nov 2012

I feel like you really are the one for me, but I don't see you feel the same way about me...

311. Date: 17 Nov 2012

I love only my dogs. And you. If you're one of my dogs, of course.

310. Date: 16 Nov 2012

Think about not to buy anything for this Christmas and to do all the gifts by yourself! Tell your friends to do the same. It will make a huge difference. You'll see.
I will do the same.
Thank you.

309. Date: 16 Nov 2012

Hey!

Promice me you'll dance for at least 20 min today! (and sing along loud if possible)

308. Date: 14 Nov 2012

its ok

307. Date: 12 Nov 2012

Today is Monday. The worst day in the week right?

Only if you let it, go kick this Monday's ass.

306. Date: 12 Nov 2012

What am I supposed to do if you actually get this? If you do by any chance, my name's Larissa :D And I'm a certified Bad-Ass.

305. Date: 11 Nov 2012

Sup Dawg checkout my youtube channel at http://www.youtube.com/user/JACKMAN1232123

304. Date: 07 Nov 2012

Of course you are.

It's a fleeting judgment, for sure. Consider you pass a person on the street; you need to judge this stranger and determine your interaction with them. Maybe they're going to cause trouble, or trying to sell you something. Maybe you're headed straight for each other.

You need to judge whether you're going to pass them on your their left or their right. They'll do the same to you. Sometimes you'll both get it wrong and end up performing a short, improvised pas de deux; each unwilling participant attempting to double-guess and triple-guess their partners next move.

In these situations, the only reasonable response is to open your soul and cry out. Demand, bargain and plead with your new cohort. They should go to your right. They should stay where they are. They should never give up. They should come with you.

Consider you perform this interaction with hundreds of people every day.

And yet, once you've passed each of these people, can you even remember their faces?

Judging and being judged is normal. Being remembered is much harder.

Smile.

And always wear a fake mustache.

In response to:

I feel like I'm
Being judged every time someone looks at me

303. Date: 07 Nov 2012

Of course you are.

It's a fleeting judgment, for sure. Consider you pass a person on the street; you need to judge this stranger and determine your interaction with them. Maybe they're going to cause trouble, or trying to sell you something. Maybe you're headed straight for each other.

You need to judge whether you're going to pass them on your their left or their right. They'll do the same to you. Sometimes you'll both get it wrong and end up performing a short, improvised pas de deux; each unwilling participant attempting to double-guess and triple-guess their partners next move.

In these situations, the only reasonable response is to open your soul and cry out. Demand, bargain and plead with your new cohort. They should go to your right. They should stay where they are. They should never give up. They should come with you.

Consider you perform this interaction with hundreds of people every day.

And yet, once you've passed each of these people, can you even remember their faces?

Judging and being judged is normal. Being remembered is much harder.

Smile.

And always wear a fake mustache.

In response to:

I feel like I'm
Being judged every time someone looks at me

302. Date: 06 Nov 2012

Today I learned that I am a mean, mean person.

I don't care about anyone. Its not true but it seems like it to other people.

I do care, I do it's just that its so hard to show it. I've been trapped for so long.

301. Date: 05 Nov 2012

I feel like I want to die

300. Date: 05 Nov 2012

Every morning is really, really hard to get up and get out of bed, but sometimes there are certain people who make it worth it. Be one of those people.

299. Date: 04 Nov 2012

I'm lost In the woods. Do I or do I not eat my dog?

298. Date: 04 Nov 2012

I'm lost In the woods. Do I or do I not eat my dog?

297. Date: 04 Nov 2012

DO DA DANCE DAT YOU GOTTA DO
TO MAKE DA ROOM BOOP DA BOO

296. Date: 04 Nov 2012

What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch? I'll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I've been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I'm the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of spies across the USA and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, maggot. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You're fucking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over seven hundred ways, and that's just with my bare hands. Not only am I extensively trained in unarmed combat, but I have access to the entire arsenal of the United States Marine Corps and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little "clever" comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue. But you couldn't, you didn't, and now you're paying the price, you goddamn idiot. I will shit fury all over you and you will drown in it. You're fucking dead, kiddo.

295. Date: 03 Nov 2012

You're an amazing person, I hope you know that. If you're having just a general crappy day I hope you know that somewhere out there cares about you, and if you ever need help, you can always reach out to the people you care about. Stay great :)

294. Date: 02 Nov 2012

YOU ARE HERE.
PEOPLE CARE ABOUT YOU.
YOU ARE LOVED.
DEAL
WITH
IT.

293. Date: 02 Nov 2012

YOU ARE HERE.
PEOPLE CARE ABOUT YOU.
YOU ARE LOVED.
DEAL
WITH
IT.

292. Date: 02 Nov 2012

Dude... I am way tooo high

291. Date: 02 Nov 2012

Feel like you have lost your libido? Check between the cushions of your sofa. If you still can't find it after 6 months then take up gardening

290. Date: 01 Nov 2012

I like turtles !

289. Date: 31 Oct 2012

Give them some time to think it over. If they're reacting that violently, you've probably hit on a sensitive issue for them. Let them stew over it for awhile, and they may see what you said has some merit. You should also reflect on what you said to them; perhaps the message you sent wasn't what you intended to, or was misunderstood by the recipient. If you can get them to calm down, ask them to explain why they believe what they did wasn't wrong. You might just learn something about them or yourself.

In response to:

Have you ever noticed how sometimes when you would just like to *politely* make someone aware that they might be doing something wrong or inappropriate, they respond very aggressively, even threateningly, as though it was *you* who was the wrong-doer? I believe this is a particular character trait. Some people will just quietly acknowledge that they made a mistake and apologise, while others respond in this aggressive manner. What annoys me, though, is that in the latter situation, you (who are in the right) are stuck for what to do next. What would you do?

288. Date: 31 Oct 2012

If your friends are your real friends, then they should love you even if you aren't.

In response to:

It's too hard to be always clever and intelligent...

287. Date: 31 Oct 2012

Conquering your fears: one of the greatest accomplishes in life. It can be exhilarating.
Take a trip somewhere first, see how it makes you feel.
Or maybe your home is exactly where you want to be but you can't really know that unless you experience other parts of the world. Study abroad programs would be a great way to get out in the world and see it. This planet is far too beautiful to be missed!
And don't worry about being "good enough". Just be what you are. Never set extreme goals that are so far out of reach that even Einstein would have trouble achieving. I think that tv and movies have warped our sense of what it means to be "good enough". Everyone is the best of the best and better than the best of the best in real life. On tv, so many main characters have special talents. It's great for entertainment but it can make people feel less than good, because they can't attain that level of specialness.
Just be.

In response to:

I want to succeed in life and be a great person, but I'm scared to go out into the world. All I've known is the world at home and the rest of the world scares me. I know what I want to be in life but the thought of not being good enough has stopped me from doing my best and showing others that I am willing to work for what I love. I don't know what to do anymore.

286. Date: 31 Oct 2012

I deal with emotions through music and creative writing. I pour my heart and soul into the art so that I may at least forget my struggles and try to find a way to overcome them. Usually the music helps me gain strength and clearer understanding of life.

In response to:

How do you deal with your emotions? You know, when you want to control them, but you can't. You just sit there, hoping things will get better, that you'll find a way to get through life, but you don't. And you are afraid that things won't get better, that you'll stay like this, or even worse, it will get worse. How do you go through this?

285. Date: 31 Oct 2012

Swearing at someone on the internet is a victimless crime, like punching someone in the dark. You bellend.

In response to:

Post Secret has new shit today. I'm going there after this.

284. Date: 31 Oct 2012

Thanks :) This was a great message!

I hope you're having a great day.

In response to:

Have fun, because this is all just a ride :)

283. Date: 31 Oct 2012

If you're feeling down today, just remember: you have as many Tour de France titles as Lance Armstrong :D

282. Date: 31 Oct 2012

I feel like i should just die, like my whole world is crashing down upon me, like i should just end it all and never have to feel this kind of pain ever again. I am so in love, and supposidly so was he, everyone says it will get better, i dont see that happening, he left me for another girl, she has a baby, i cant take this, it hurts so bad, Do I end it all? Or do I continue on in my misery. Ive never hurt this bad, im literally sick to my stomach. I hate this, Ihate him. I hate being alive and breathing and feeling. I hate it all

281. Date: 31 Oct 2012

I want to succeed in life and be a great person, but I'm scared to go out into the world. All I've known is the world at home and the rest of the world scares me. I know what I want to be in life but the thought of not being good enough has stopped me from doing my best and showing others that I am willing to work for what I love. I don't know what to do anymore.

280. Date: 31 Oct 2012

Most of the time I feel like my leadership and management skills need work. But leading and managing is an integral part of my job.

279. Date: 31 Oct 2012

How do you deal with your emotions? You know, when you want to control them, but you can't. You just sit there, hoping things will get better, that you'll find a way to get through life, but you don't. And you are afraid that things won't get better, that you'll stay like this, or even worse, it will get worse. How do you go through this?

278. Date: 31 Oct 2012

Have fun, because this is all just a ride :)

277. Date: 31 Oct 2012

Hello. Right now, I'm so in love that I'm not even scared anymore. I know that when I wake up tomorrow the world might be a different place. I might be lonely again. A friend might be sad. But for now, as far as I know, everyone around me is happy. I hope more than anything that you can feel the same way today as I do right now, even if it's only fleeting. I can't do anything to change your life, but I hope you're enjoying it. Peace.

276. Date: 31 Oct 2012

I want friends.
I live in Japan. There is no friend, no lover, no fun.

275. Date: 31 Oct 2012

Have you ever noticed how sometimes when you would just like to *politely* make someone aware that they might be doing something wrong or inappropriate, they respond very aggressively, even threateningly, as though it was *you* who was the wrong-doer? I believe this is a particular character trait. Some people will just quietly acknowledge that they made a mistake and apologise, while others respond in this aggressive manner. What annoys me, though, is that in the latter situation, you (who are in the right) are stuck for what to do next. What would you do?

274. Date: 30 Oct 2012

I ate the best chocolate brownie I have had in years today, it made my day. Think back to your favourite brownie moment and put a smile on your face too.

273. Date: 29 Oct 2012

there's this girl..she's incredible, hands down the best girl I've ever met. She is actually really into me, which begs the question, what am I getting at?

We've hung out twice, and currently go to different colleges, however we talk a lot. When we're not, it hurts. What confuses me is how terrified I get when it comes to potentially actually hanging out (possibly because sex is inferred, at which she is MUCH more experienced than I). I don't know if it's immaturity, insecurity, some mental problem, fear of relationship/commitment or a combination.

It has lead me to believe either I have some serious growing up to do, some serious manning up to do, or some therapeutic help needed. Just wanted to get a little off my chest. She understands that a lot of this is likely stemming from deep rooted low self confidence levels, but she won't stay around while I deal with my bullshit forever.

272. Date: 29 Oct 2012

hi.

271. Date: 29 Oct 2012

Maybe you're questioning the steps you've taken in your life. Maybe you're thinking twice about the leaps of faith and the dancing steps of reckless youth. Maybe you're saying to yourself: 'Look at the time I wasted, the embarrassment I caused and the feelings that ensued.'

Think again. All the steps you've taken in your life, whether they are steps forwards or backwards, have built upon each other to bring you to the here and now. And if here and now you feel the least bit happy, wise or toughened, you should not regret any of the steps you've taken in your life. Because ultimately, they brought you to who you are.

Keep on taking those steps, and have an amazing life!

270. Date: 29 Oct 2012

Every single time I wake up, I get this overwhelming feeling that I'm going nowhere, I have no purpose in life. I lack motivation and I just keep distancing myself from those who care about me. I should seek help, but I can't bring myself around to do anything about it. I've been in this spiraling downward free fall, and I don't see a bright future for myself. Have a nice day.

269. Date: 29 Oct 2012

listen to bbc radio four. It will calm you down in moments of stress.

Agricultural drams and news reports galore. All can all be found on bbc radio four

268. Date: 29 Oct 2012

peanut butter goes surprisingly well with everything

267. Date: 29 Oct 2012

Go somewhere that you have never been before, but somewhere close by.
Sit in this place for fifteen minutes
Think of 3 sounds you can hear,
Three things that you can see,
two things you can smell,
One thing you can feel.
Don't lick anything

266. Date: 29 Oct 2012

Think of the three most important things in your life.
Make sure you make time for at least one of those things this week.
Massage your own left foot. It will make you smile

265. Date: 29 Oct 2012

Tasks for the day,
1)Make eye contact and smile at an old person.
2)Count the stairs in the building that you live in
3) tick the tasks of the list. You have had a successful day

264. Date: 29 Oct 2012

if you are tired, sleep
if you are hungry, eat
then, set aside an hour to do something you really enjoy
I think this will make for a good day

263. Date: 29 Oct 2012

Hello from Greece! :D

In response to:

Hello, from castaic, California

262. Date: 28 Oct 2012

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyalllllllllllllllllllll
heeeeeyalll

261. Date: 28 Oct 2012

I want to ask out this girl, but i don't know how! help me pls

-LG Ross

260. Date: 28 Oct 2012

I am not sure if anyone will find this but if he isnt, make Eric Clapton god again.

259. Date: 28 Oct 2012

I don't know what's going on. I never did. Everything I come into some kind of contact with makes some kind of sense. Some kind of sense but I don't understand.

I've spent so long in my life trying to make sense of it, It drives me crazy sometimes, I drive people away. I hurt people (emotionally, This isn't a confession or anything) or maybe it is.

Maybe I should confess that I'm wrong. I've always been. There is no magic out there. All I see around me is all it actually is and all it will ever be, but if I give up hoping, I don't know how I'm going to live with myself.

This is vague, but it's all I know. Maybe someone somewhere can make sense of this.

I'm incomplete and everywhere I go, I can sense that the thing that's supposed to fill me was here and I've only just missed it.

258. Date: 28 Oct 2012

If I had a gun, I would be dead thirty times over.

257. Date: 27 Oct 2012

Adopt a retired greyhound, they are wonderful dogs!

256. Date: 27 Oct 2012

Delete the reasons you get on the computer: deactivate facebook, forum accounts, Twitter etc. If that doesn't help, hook your power strip up to a wall timer (if on a desktop). There might be an automatic power-off option for laptops.

In response to:

I'm a slave to my computer. Help?

255. Date: 27 Oct 2012

I'm a slave to my computer. Help?

254. Date: 27 Oct 2012

You should watch My Little Pony. Seriously.

253. Date: 27 Oct 2012

Sup Dude

252. Date: 26 Oct 2012

Im sad.

Im sad, I punish myself
I, the lord Nezahualcoyotl
With flowers and songs
I remember the princes
Those who are gone
To Tezozomoctin
To Cuacuahtzin

They really exist
In the place that somehow beholds existence
Wish that i could follow the princes
Take them our flowers
Wish i could sing like Tezozomoctin.
Your name shall never be forgotten.

Oh my lord Tezozomoctin!
I been missing your voice
I have came to afflict myself
I just came to stay sad
I rip apart myself
Youre not here, not anymore
In the place that somehow beholds existence
You leave behind a wasteland
And thats why I myself rip apart

Nezahualcoyotl
Aztec King

251. Date: 26 Oct 2012

Dear Diary,

GET THE POTATO.

250. Date: 26 Oct 2012

hello there Random Stranger :)

To be honest, I sat down to writing in a horrible, nasty, depressed mood. Night is falling (in my time zone, that is), it's Friday, and I don't seem to be able to let go of my problems and worries and sadness. I was well tempted to pour out my pessimism right here and now (you know, in the spirit of 'how can people not be constantly depressed by this cruelly sad world?!?')...
But (thankfully) there was a little voice in my head going 'don't you think it is quite dumb, to wallow in self-pity and sadness AND spread it across the world as well?'

Well, I ain't gonna. I think what I need, and what a lot of people need, is actually spreading some nice things around, against the odds. Trying to be, when I can, a little less self-involved and a little bit more caring. (I know, I am hardly discovering America here :P)

So here is a link to a cute website that has helped me a couple of times to feel a bit better:
http://www.soundsleeping.com/index.php
If you are skeptical - just play around with the sounds a little bit and give it a chance. At first I was like 'yeah right, as if the sounds of the ocean are gonna help my mood, it's so new age mother-nature silly'. But I stand corrected, it bloody works - I don't know if it is the regularity, or the memories of holidays (crickets), or something primal in human soul to do with drums... ;) I feel right now like a pool of calm with a buddhist monk on top ;)

Hugs, Human :)

249. Date: 26 Oct 2012

I'm going to write a film. You'll see it in a few years.

248. Date: 26 Oct 2012

I think I've found hope now. That's it. It's enough for now. It's better.

247. Date: 26 Oct 2012

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELp

246. Date: 26 Oct 2012

LOL U MAD?

245. Date: 25 Oct 2012

hi

I miss you

244. Date: 25 Oct 2012

Bad Wolf

243. Date: 25 Oct 2012

You are an awedome person, no matter what! :) Have a nice day

242. Date: 25 Oct 2012

HEY! I FOUND THIS BOTTLE AND SOME PAPER AND NOW IM WRITING IN IT LOLZ

241. Date: 25 Oct 2012

10/24/12 YAY ok bye

240. Date: 24 Oct 2012

Blake, I really and truly love you, I have since 2nd grade. I just never had the guts to tell you

239. Date: 23 Oct 2012

Wouldn't it be something if everything changed?

238. Date: 22 Oct 2012

HAVE A GOOD DAY

237. Date: 22 Oct 2012

I really should finish these college apps, but fuck it, I'm procrastinating.

236. Date: 22 Oct 2012

I need a hug :(

235. Date: 21 Oct 2012

Hello world

234. Date: 21 Oct 2012

BE HAPPY BECAUSE LIFE IS MOTHERFUCKING GREAT

233. Date: 21 Oct 2012

Enjoy this life, and life WILL take care of you!

(Tibetan words of wisdom)

232. Date: 21 Oct 2012

I just went for a long run and now my man-bits are all chafed :'(

231. Date: 21 Oct 2012

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

230. Date: 21 Oct 2012

Unfortunately, I'm dead. You will die one day die too. We will all be forgotten in the long run. There is no reason to live life to the fullest or worry about the futile problems in your life because it doesn't matter. If we are lucky, we may be remembered by our great grand children and even then we will be nothing more than someone they've heard about. Think about it. Do you know of your great great grandfather? I doubt it. He was here for a flash and forgotten just as fast. Few great men become eternal. Julius Caesar, William Shakespeare, Aristotle, and Leonardo da Vinci are immortals. You and I are just a dust that used to be a grain of sand in a vast desert. Enjoy the rest of your day.

- Richard Cranium

229. Date: 20 Oct 2012

Hello

228. Date: 20 Oct 2012

It IS great that you can do anything by yourself. That kind of independence is something I've only started to appreciate in the last couple of years and now I try to achieve. It's really important. But of course we want to be with others sometimes, we're social creatures. Don't think that people won't like you before you've met them! There are many many people out there, and while they're all very different, they're also the same as us in a lot of ways. I often feel that everyone around me is more confident and less insecure than me, but they're only humans, they must feel the same way, have the same thoughts. What is it that you can't stand about people around you? Don't be deliberately lonely because you don't want to hurt other people. People will always get hurt, but it's better to live than try and insulate yourself. Just avoid those who don't care about hurting others.

You can make mistakes and learn from them, but don't ever hate yourself.

I'm sure I can't properly imagine what it's like to have a daughter. That must be an incredibly beautiful thing in your life.

In response to:

I find it very hard sometimes to live alone with my daughter, but i hardly can stand any person around me... it makes me self-confident that i can do anything alone but it also makes me very sad because i'm pretty alone and i dont think that anyone in the world would really like me (not even i like myself) i am happy that i am no longer suicidal or depressed...but i think about that loneliness all the time. sometimes i think its better for everyone, that i cannot hurt anyone anymore but the more i think about it, that self-hatred is coming back to me and starting to take over my thoughts. i have to say, it has been a very long time that i had to wait to get as happy as i am now. and maybe its the best "happy" i will ever get.
i am happy, but alone, and that makes me sad..
omg i cant understand my feelings

227. Date: 20 Oct 2012

For years I tried to push love. I forced it on boyfriends. I was desperate to feel needed. But it never felt right.
I signed up for 2 years overseas to escape my life and escape my desperation for love. I told myself these 2 years would be just for me, not to try and appease someone else.

I met my future husband on the 1st day of the program, though I didn't know it for a year.
He became my best friend, my everything. We opened our hearts to each other over that journey. We traveled through countries together, experienced adventure and danger and had trust in each other.

We got married and lived happily together. Even when it didn't feel quite right, we were still two peas in a pod.

Reaching the end of my 20's I realized something peculiar...I had always wanted a tattoo and yet had never gotten one. What started as a small question of self became a year of exploration into all the parts of me I had never questioned. At six months I accepted that I actually fantasized about women, not men. At eight months I had the courage to tell my husband. At ten months I had fallen in love to a level I never knew existed before. At a year's mark I moved in with her. A month after my next birthday I commemorated the dramatic shift in my life course by getting a tattoo.

If I had continued to live my life by what I thought others expected of me I would have made my husband and myself miserable over time. Marriage does not define happiness; reaching inside yourself, asking scary questions, hearing what your heart has to say in response...THAT will help you find happiness.

226. Date: 19 Oct 2012

Turn off all electricity for an hour and watch the sky

225. Date: 19 Oct 2012

Had something going on with a girl for 4 weeks, we flirted back and forth and talked for hours every day with a 50%/50% initiation to chats. We went on 2 dates and everything was going good.

But, after the second date it was like a switch was turned and we did not speak for 5 days, i sent a few texts with no response. That week was horrible for me because i did not know what was going on, i had a awful feeling in the guts and felt sick. On the 5th day though she answered, and i went straight to it and asked if things between us were "ok". She replied saying all she wanted was a friendship and was sorry that i misunderstood (the fact that she called both of out meetups "dates" did not make sense now, but oh well).

After i got that text everything felt way better. If you are having a flirt with someone, it is way better to be direct and ask what the intentions of the other part are. If they are uncomfortable with you being direct they might not be so secure about the relationship.

So even though i lost someone i had a crush on (She did not want to stay friends after, haven't heard from her yet) i feel way better than before i asked her about it, so a "rejection" might not be that bad after all :)

224. Date: 19 Oct 2012

hello my name is justin cunningham i live in ontario

223. Date: 19 Oct 2012

all i xan think of is pie. i don't like pie that much. oh well...

222. Date: 19 Oct 2012

You're a human. You've made it this long, and that's an accomplishment. Pat yourself on the back and smile, things could be worse.

221. Date: 19 Oct 2012

Hi,
Please remember that you are loved, and you're beautiful, inside and out. Don't give up. Just know that someone out there is waiting for you, and trust me it will be worth it.

220. Date: 18 Oct 2012

Dear receiver,
I hope this message reaches you in time, for time is one thing we can not allow ourselves to waste.

The world as we know it may soon come to an end. There is only one person on our planet that can save the day. But try as we might, we couldn't devise a method of deducing who that person is.

As such, the responsibility to choose a person randomly has been handed to me, and I decided to use this fair method. YOU, my friend, are as good a choice as anyone else. The chances are extremely against us, but as long as we're still here - there is hope.

Please report as soon as possible to start your training.

Godspeed.

219. Date: 18 Oct 2012

who invented kissing?

218. Date: 17 Oct 2012

you will be come a great person tomorrow !!!!

217. Date: 17 Oct 2012

http://ghost-town.tumblr.com/ this is me, know me, feel me, follow me, to a own world, an own language and living, an own life.

216. Date: 17 Oct 2012

Super Paper Mario holds a special place in my heart, and I really hope the make another game in the same style.

215. Date: 16 Oct 2012

You are always the reason for someone's smile.
You may even be the reason for someone's vitality.
Possibly even the reason for their life.

Don't ever forget that.

214. Date: 16 Oct 2012

If the seasons sour in the light of the darkness
If the threads of life fly off their spools in a flurry of chaos and destruction
If the moon ceases to revolve around the night skies of our minds
and the merciless ground gives way beneath your feet,
Hold out your hand.

I can't say I'll catch you,
but I can say that I'll fall with you.

In response to:

I am unbreakable, but it looks like i could sometime soon.
You are unreachable, about as possible as touching the moon.
I am unraveling, unbearably empty
And if this ground gives way I just hope that you'll catch me.

213. Date: 16 Oct 2012

I am unbreakable, but it looks like i could sometime soon.
You are unreachable, about as possible as touching the moon.
I am unraveling, unbearably empty
And if this ground gives way I just hope that you'll catch me.

212. Date: 16 Oct 2012

I feel like I've lost motivation to live. I've stayed in bed the past two days. I don't know what to do about it.

211. Date: 16 Oct 2012

i am in love with a girl who will never love me. i have cancer. one of the teeth fell out. how did it come to this?

210. Date: 16 Oct 2012

Hello, world of the internet!

209. Date: 16 Oct 2012

Every time I decide to walk,
I am pulled back in,
Like an invisible hand,
He maintains his hold on my heart.
Where is my pride, my dignity, my strength?
They've deserted me,
Just like his love for me.

208. Date: 16 Oct 2012

I LIKE TRAINS

207. Date: 16 Oct 2012

Slenderman is coming for you, hide, hide as fast as you can. He is fast, faster than you can imagine. Don't look at him or he'll get you. Run, just run.

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206. Date: 16 Oct 2012

I like a girl but im to much of a coward to ell her.
Gretings from Sweden

205. Date: 16 Oct 2012

If you're out there -

I love you.

204. Date: 16 Oct 2012

I love you, because I love everybody.

203. Date: 15 Oct 2012

Everybody should know that life is beautiful, and one should always cherish every moment of it. So just smile.

202. Date: 15 Oct 2012

Hello world!

201. Date: 15 Oct 2012

I hope you are a happy person and remember that you are beautiful and inteligent as you are. Don´t let anyone bring you down because you are an awesome and unique person. Do your best to enjoy your life the most you can, remember that, even if i don´t know you, I love you and hope the best for you.

200. Date: 15 Oct 2012

I'm stranded at the pirate bay.

199. Date: 15 Oct 2012

i like pie :D

198. Date: 15 Oct 2012

Would you tell me something interesting to ponder upon until I will go sleep? I will also try to do so in return.

197. Date: 15 Oct 2012

Hi, I love you.

Jo

196. Date: 15 Oct 2012

Hey

195. Date: 15 Oct 2012

I am a collection of atoms and molecules called Ozzy.

194. Date: 15 Oct 2012

In darkness, may your eyes find the sun. In dirt, may you purify the earth. In struggles, may the world bare witness. And in gardens, may you again grow. For you continue forever. You are eternal.

193. Date: 15 Oct 2012

Im in love with my dick!

192. Date: 15 Oct 2012

What is time yet the gaps between our memories?

191. Date: 15 Oct 2012

The date is October 15th, 2012 and the Presidential election is soon. Mitt Romney musn't win.

190. Date: 15 Oct 2012

You may not grow to be the oldest person ever to have lived, but just remember: for a short moment, you were the youngest person on Earth. You. Don't say you're not important.

189. Date: 15 Oct 2012

*Taps on the glass*

Well shoot it seems I'm stuck in a bottle of some kind. Oh well at least it's a nice view. Now if only I could reach the cork.

188. Date: 15 Oct 2012

welp, sometimes i just want to scream. the one thing we can not get away from in life is people. you just have to learn to deal with it, unfortunately i have not. i just try to focus in the positive and not let the little things get to me. its just whatever.

187. Date: 15 Oct 2012

Greetings from reddit!

186. Date: 15 Oct 2012

I don't know who you are, but you are awesome, as a human being. Enjoy life. Exercise some. Eat right, but spoil yourself a little every now and again.

185. Date: 14 Oct 2012

You will have a wonderful day today. <3

184. Date: 14 Oct 2012

You look great today.

183. Date: 14 Oct 2012

Help I'm dieing I hope this message reaches some one my corrdinates are 240 21 43 I only have a laptop and some how internet. I must be close to shore.

182. Date: 14 Oct 2012

Help I'm dieing I hope this message reaches some one my corrdinates are 240 21 43 I only have a laptop and some how internet. I must be close to shore.

181. Date: 14 Oct 2012

hello hows it going

180. Date: 14 Oct 2012

When does the narwhal bacon?

179. Date: 14 Oct 2012

I feel like an asshole. I think I like being heartbroken. I get into relationships and I end them. Looking back on them, I regret it and I dunno. I stay in that mood. That moody mood where all I want to do is brood. I honestly don't know what to do about that. . . I'm just an asshole I guess.

178. Date: 14 Oct 2012

my farts smell like spoiled cabbage

177. Date: 14 Oct 2012

The Game

176. Date: 14 Oct 2012

Keep your head up. It gets better.

175. Date: 14 Oct 2012

When you find people you like to be around and make you feel at home....you might want to stay in touch.

174. Date: 14 Oct 2012

In the end, always leave them confused

173. Date: 14 Oct 2012

Hello mate. I like pie. Good day!

172. Date: 13 Oct 2012

I am a man who is still in love with someone from long ago. Don't become like me. Love everyone in your life completely and let them go when the time has come to do so. Don't be confused if your life does not end up where you thought it was going to, that is the case for everyone in the world. Just allow yourself to be happy in the life that you have now, and do not dwell on the thoughts of what has happened in the past. its quicksand, and you can get sucked down faster than you realize. Don't be like me. Be better than me.

171. Date: 13 Oct 2012

Always love
Hate will get you every time
Always love
Don't want till the finish line

170. Date: 13 Oct 2012

Life moves on and the wheels keep turning, don't be help back. take it from a man who Is thought of as useless for being one handed, exceed expectations, and always be in a light perspective. Everything is good with the right perspective. If you every feel down, use this: http://make-everything-ok.com/

169. Date: 13 Oct 2012

Hello, my name is Samuel. I have no intention of writing a long paragraph.

168. Date: 13 Oct 2012

People who have never been to another country, but talk about how terrible America is piss me off. People are people. Just because someone doesn't agree with you it doesn't mean you can insult them.

167. Date: 13 Oct 2012

I have never truly been in love. I have always longed for a relationship where we can just snuggle and I can use him as a guinea pig for all my culinary experiments. I want someone who will make me try new things, but also enjoy a few of my interests. Is this too much to ask?

166. Date: 13 Oct 2012

To whomever finds this message,
I want you to know, that no matter who you are, or what you do, you are perfect.
You aren't worthless because you're fat, have acne, get bad grades, or a multitude of other things.
Those things don't make you worthless, they make you.

165. Date: 12 Oct 2012

I tell my friend that sometimes I have days when I feel like people look at me in the halls and start to laugh, and that I'm an outcast - that I'm talked about.
What they don't know is that I feel like that every day.

164. Date: 12 Oct 2012

Hi,

I want you to know that you are beautiful. Seriously, you are gorgeous. Stunning to some. Trust me, someone is waiting for you.

163. Date: 12 Oct 2012

If the fruits of work shouldn't be your motive, what should be?

In response to:

You have the right to work, but for the work's sake only. You have no right to the fruits of work. Desire for the fruits of work must never be your motive in working...

162. Date: 12 Oct 2012

You have the right to work, but for the work's sake only. You have no right to the fruits of work. Desire for the fruits of work must never be your motive in working...

161. Date: 12 Oct 2012

Friendship is Magic

160. Date: 12 Oct 2012

Message in a bottle.

159. Date: 12 Oct 2012

"Man sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future, that he does not enjoy the present moment. As a result, he does not live in the present or the future, he lives as if he is never going to die, and then he dies having never truly lived."
-The Dalai Lama

158. Date: 12 Oct 2012

I've been always so independent in my life and I've been dealing with my problems lonely and on my own even when I was a little girl.Now I'm 21 years old but I feel that I just can't go on anymore.I feel that I'm under pressure all the time and I've become so coward.Everything and everyone scares me.I feel my heart freezing in my chest with any voice or noise.Every night I wake up moaning and screaming and I'm tired of nightmares.Last night I did something so weird that I never could even imagine.I shouted at a person following me,talking and bothering me.I feel so bad about my self and I hate being such a coward.I'm just tired of this much stress.
Now I look back on my way.Maybe I was wrong all these years acting so cold blooded and strong.Maybe I should had tried asking for help at least from my family.

157. Date: 11 Oct 2012

I'm naked as I write this.

156. Date: 11 Oct 2012

i love her

155. Date: 11 Oct 2012

Be kind. Everyone is fighting their own battles.

154. Date: 11 Oct 2012

Hi i need to make more new friends

153. Date: 11 Oct 2012

Hello! Gosh this is exciting. I'm not sure what to say! I hope you have a love day, or something.

152. Date: 11 Oct 2012

Go do something you love

151. Date: 11 Oct 2012

Do only what you tell yourself you can do, not what you tell yourself you can not do.

150. Date: 11 Oct 2012

boners.... just boners

149. Date: 10 Oct 2012

I know how you feel. It's almost the same for me.

In response to:

I haven't lived with my dad since I was 9, I haven't lived with my mum since I was 16

I miss my mum.

148. Date: 10 Oct 2012

I was in love, but she left me. She lied to me the whole time. She talked about us being together, getting married, holding hands in rallies of rainbows, moving to San Fransisco. But then she told me that she was never into me. That she "tried, I really did." but just couldn't make herself like me.

I will always be confused.

147. Date: 10 Oct 2012

Brohoof /)

146. Date: 10 Oct 2012

Applejack is bestpony

145. Date: 10 Oct 2012

I am so happy with who I am as a person, I have to pretend to be unhappy sometimes. I know there is room for improvement, but I'm just so content all the time and I don't think it's normal.

144. Date: 10 Oct 2012

I want you to be nice to other people.

In response to:

143. Date: 10 Oct 2012

Not much to say other than I am just another lost soul stuck inside the confines of a machine yet to reach it's quota. Now that I realize this fact I can move on from this mortal coil with the thought that one day this task too shall end, and with it everything we hold so dear. This grim dark future without law will be blessed with true creation. A world where regret and remorse overshadow the hardships of living in a present where no one will stand for something of value. This is the future in which we are destined to reside in. To rebuild and establish a new form of government. One in which a vocal minority will rule the land with an Iron Fist.

This is our Independence Day.

142. Date: 10 Oct 2012

Shouldn't you be doing work?!

Yeah, me too.

141. Date: 10 Oct 2012

Shouldn't you be doing work?!

Yeah, me too.

140. Date: 10 Oct 2012

In any given social environment, there will be someone at least as nervous or awkward as you are. They may be better at hiding those feelings, or at hiding themselves so that we don't notice them, but they are certainly there. They may choose to hide is with outward enthusiasm, a veneer of superiority and disdain, or anything in between. You may find it helpful to remember that as humans, we are all worried about something, embarrassed by a real or imagined personal shortcoming, and/or experiencing a feeling of inferiority or lack of belonging. When out in about in the world, the goal is to behave toward others in way that would make even the most nervous or awkward person feel as though they are safe and can be expressively authentic to themselves without fear of mockery, rejection, or retaliation. If everyone were already treating others this way, most, if not all insecurities surrounding human interaction would cease to present any real hurdle to social interaction.

139. Date: 10 Oct 2012

What about those times when judging someone is necessary or helpful? For example, when interviewing candidates for a new job? It seems necessary to make a judgment of some kind then. Or when asked on a date by a person you find attractive, but might feel as though "something is a bit off" about them? Do you think it would be helpful to attempt to make a judgement about them then? Obviously, in neither scenario is it possible to know all about that person or what they are dealing with or have been through, but without making some relatively uninformed judgements, taking the proper course of action seems impossible.

I think your statement "Please be kind. That is all.", is infinitely more practical and universally applicable. I would modify this advice to "Please do not make snap judgements about others, and then refuse to change your conclusions when shown or taught differently. Always be kind to others, whether you have judged them to be worthwhile or not. Kindness is harmless, free of charge, and important for everyone to share and experience. There are as many kind ways to say no as there are to say yes, to avoid as there are to engage, and to argue as there are to agree."

I feel as though judgement is not the issue, so much as how we choose to treat others once we have made a judgement about them. We are all making mistakes, missteps, misspeaking. How we respond to these things from others is what decides how we ultimately will be responded to in our own situations. Judgements are how we make risk-assessments about other people and unknown environments, and is a necessary part of remaining aware, comfortable, and safe in any given situation or with any person or people. It is a tool available to every thinking being on our planet, and humans have probably the largest capacity to make informed judgements. Rather than ignore this important tool for surviving and thriving in any given environment, we should be striving for using it with more discernment, and choosing our reactions to these unavoidable judgements with more care.

In response to:

Don't judge people. I know this has been thrown around a lot but it is still and always be a problem. You don't know what others have been through or are dealing with. Please be kind. That's all.

138. Date: 10 Oct 2012

Tonight, I had my first cigarette in three weeks.

My mother is ill. I moved out here to help take care of her animals and her acreage. I've been a smoker for two years now but I never felt like discussing it with her. When I decided to come out here, I decided I should quit. No need to put extra stress on her.

Stripped down by a womb-reminiscent regression, I bought a pack. Like a rebellious teenager, I snuck out tonight and chain-smoked.

Foolish as it may be. I like to smoke, goddamnit! Science, government and judgement be damned. They say you should do the things in life you love, right?

And right now, I need this.

137. Date: 10 Oct 2012

hi

136. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Once more into the fray
Into the last good fight I'll ever know
Live and die on this day
Live and die on this day

135. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Be Excellent to Each Other...and...PARTY ON DUDES!

134. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Don't be constantly afraid of what could go wrong, because if you do you're not living.

133. Date: 09 Oct 2012

No matter where you are right now, no matter what you are doing, know that YOU are significant.

132. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Odds are your life doesn't suck (a lot), which means something is going right. Odds are you're the reason why your life isn't as bad as some. Share that not suck around, people love to not suck. Love you.

131. Date: 09 Oct 2012

I put my finger up her bum.

130. Date: 09 Oct 2012

(502) 648-7093

129. Date: 09 Oct 2012

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128. Date: 09 Oct 2012

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TIC TAC TOE WOO

127. Date: 09 Oct 2012

I haven't lived with my dad since I was 9, I haven't lived with my mum since I was 16

I miss my mum.

126. Date: 09 Oct 2012

i want to fuck most living persons on this planet.

125. Date: 09 Oct 2012

"Get a job that you like and you will never have to work."

124. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Would you prefer to fight 1 horse sized duck and 100 duck sized horses?

123. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Dear reader, I am writing my master thesis right now. Hopefully by the time this is read, I am finished ! Wish me luck! Have a lovely day :)

122. Date: 09 Oct 2012

I like cats. Cats are awesome.

121. Date: 09 Oct 2012

nope.avi

120. Date: 09 Oct 2012

I'm going to hell if there is one. I doubt it though.

119. Date: 09 Oct 2012

I love being pooped on. What is wrong with me?

118. Date: 09 Oct 2012

I want you to know that in the next 11 minutes you will need a drink of water.

117. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Oh hai Daniel Jamieson here I like d turbabababas

116. Date: 09 Oct 2012

people should be more honest towards themselves. There is no reason to lie to yourself unless you are too scared to face the facts. Authenticy is the first step to become a bigger Person

115. Date: 09 Oct 2012

I hope with time we become less politically correct and have a better sense of humour

114. Date: 09 Oct 2012

My wife cheated on me, I want to leave her but I can't bring myself to do it. I am torn between not trusting her and the potential life we could have together. I told her I forgave her but I don't. I have massive resentment for what she did to me but she has no idea. I got to the point where I didn't really give a shit if I kept on living. I wasn't suicidal but I wouldn't of tried to prevent my death if some situation turned into something that could kill me. I've talked to no one due to embarrassment. Before we were married I told her she could do anything in life and I would support her, the only requirements I had was to be honest with me and to never cheat. She promised she would never cheat and try to be honest as much as possible. She broke her promise.

113. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Atheist thanks to god

112. Date: 09 Oct 2012

My first boyfriend taught me that I couldn't keep a guy without putting out. He broke up with me because I wouldn't let him in my pants after three weeks. He dumped me through a text. My second boyfriend shoved his tongue down my throat during our first kiss. He left me because I didn't want him doing drugs. He ended it over instant messaging. My third "boyfriend" was only with me for sex. I don't even count him. He "broke up" with me in a text. My fourth boyfriend hated me by the end of our relationship, and dumped me after a fight while instant messaging. Three years later he tried to hook up with me again. I said no. My fifth boyfriend wouldn't let me get in his pants. Three months into our relationship things sort of fizzled out and we broke up. He was the first guy to break up with me in person.

My sixth boyfriend was immature and childish and perverted. The sex only lasted a few minutes and he tasted sour. We fought almost every day. He was the first one I dumped. I ended it in person. We were both crying. We had been together for almost seven months.

My seventh boyfriend was depressed. He had a world inside his head and dark secrets inside his heart. He told me things I still haven't uttered to a soul. We took a week-long break from each other, at the end of which we got into a fight. He dumped me through a text. He's the reason I started hurting myself.

I got back together with number six. He had started smoking after we broke up the first time. This time around it was better, but we were still bad for each other. Towards the end of our relationship we started talking about breaking up. We both knew it was coming, but we were so comfortable with each other that neither of us wanted to end it. We broke up as a mutual decision.

My eighth boyfriend was my best friend. I fell deeply in love with him. Our love was passionate and incredible. It was the perfect romance. But then he went on a trip and when he came back he had changed. Four days after he got back he told me he needed some time to be alone to figure out his life. I asked him if that meant he was breaking up with me. He said yes. I couldn't handle that and I fell into a deep depression. I haven't yet made it out of that depressive episode. I developed an eating disorder and I almost killed myself twice. It's been two and a half months since he broke up with me. We haven't spoken since. I still love him. It still hurts.

I'm so used to heartbreak. I don't know how much more I can take. But a few good things have come out of all of those failed relationships. Number six told me once, "It's a new day so forget the past and take the next step in your life." I still live by that. For every heartbreak there are a million new opportunities. I'll find "the one" eventually, and if not, I've got my books and my cats to keep me company.

To the person reading this, you're amazing. I don't know what you've been through or what you're going through right now, but whatever happens, remember that you're strong and brilliant and you have everything you need to get where you want to be in life. It's a new day. Take that next step.

111. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Hi! I have no idea who you are but I just wanted to say I love you :)

110. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Sometimes, staring at a tree cures me of any sadness I feel; standing in the pouring rain gets me out of a rut. Simplicity can be so powerful in world full of complexity and confusion.

109. Date: 09 Oct 2012

For those who are in any position of life it does not matter what you have. Look to the bright side and don't be negative. it helps those around you and makes you more likable. and just because you don't have as much as the next person to bad you live with it and learn to love it as long as you have sometime you love to do.

108. Date: 09 Oct 2012

Surprise!!! :)

107. Date: 09 Oct 2012

I put my extra truck up for sale so I'll have the money to move down to live with my girlfriend of 5 years. She broke up with me because I was being crazy and was unwell but wouldn't help myself. She left and moved to a new city because she knew it was the only way that I would change.

Sometimes you have to throw away everything to gain it all.

106. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I've fallen madly in love with my boyfriend. I've never felt this way about anyone else before. It's exhilarating.

105. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I think that our purpose in life is very simple. Our purpose is that there is no purpose. We try to explain it all and try to figure out what it means but essentially, there is no reason. Even if there were an afterlife there is still no reason. What would be the purpose of an afterlife? An eternity of what? Some say we are here to figure out the mysteries of the universe, but what is the purpose of the universe. If the universe contains everything and nothing has a purpose then it would be futile to try to figure out. The answer is that it doesn't matter.
So then, where do we go from here? Should we all destroy ourselves, now that we know there is no purpose to anything? No, because what purpose would that serve.
The meaning of life is to live. What have you done today that makes your life worth living?

104. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I love you. JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING. I don't need to know you or anything about you. But know that somewhere in this world, someone truly, deeply and spiritually cares for and loves you.

103. Date: 08 Oct 2012

The outward powers are five:
the power of sight,
of hearing,
of taste,
of smell and
of feeling.

The inner powers are also five:
the common faculty,
and the powers of imagination,
thought,
comprehension and
memory.


Abdu'l-Baha

102. Date: 08 Oct 2012

if you have a time machine come get me please

101. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I am sitting on my couch, with almost my whole family here with me, we're all happy, safe, fed and comfortable. I am very thankful and blessed, and I try to maintain my high level of appreciation as much as I can. I don't know who you are, but all humanity are one another's brothers and sisters, and you are appreciated too. I hope you treat people well, and that this message reminds you to. Whether its service people, strangers on the street, animals, your family and friends, or your significant other, they deserve your love and forgiveness. This isn't a religiously-inspired message, although that's fine if you read it as one.

He prayeth well, who loveth well
Both man and bird and beast.

He prayeth best, who loveth best
All things both great and small;
For the dear God who loveth us,
He made and loveth all.

God can be God, or the Universe, or a cheese sandwich, however you like to interpret it, as long as the message gets across.

100. Date: 08 Oct 2012

Fuck, made some pokemon

99. Date: 08 Oct 2012

i need to change the course of my life

98. Date: 08 Oct 2012

It's a lonely night here in St. Paul Minnesota. Doing Calculus, although not challenging, certainly not exciting. Lovely world this internet. So much beauty and so much possibility.

Also, why do zombies have stiches? who is going to have given a zombie medical treatment?

97. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I think you are cute

96. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I have so much homework... but I have a serious problem with procrastination. :(

95. Date: 08 Oct 2012

You are amazing. Don't let anything get you down. I love you.

94. Date: 08 Oct 2012

They say you were created to do great things. But words only come to life when you believe. Lift up your eyes, discouraged one. When you feel like giving up, when you feel like there's not enough, it's up to you to show them why they're wrong.

93. Date: 08 Oct 2012

hi hope you have a nice day!

92. Date: 08 Oct 2012

Every single person is beautiful. Beauty is more than just looks. True beauty is well, truly inside. Try and see it. It'll change your life.

91. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I think about killing myself a lot, the only thing stopping me is that it will upset my family. This makes me resent them. I have mood swings, I think I have inherited bi-polar disorder from my father, I try to hide it from my family so they don't worry. Acting like i'm happy all the time sucks. I'm lonely, the only relationships I have are abusive ones. A guy is interested in me who is funny, sweet, and handsome but i ignore him. I make bad life decisions. This message is kinda depressing, my bad. Here is a song to cheer you up, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pJvVHAh_INM. Have a nice day.

90. Date: 08 Oct 2012

It matters not whether you succeed in life by the measure of society. But for Christ's sake, don't be a fucking bum.

89. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I just ended a three year relationship. It wasn't me. It wasn't her. It was anorexia. It forced us to grow closer, and then it tore us apart. She weighed 87 pounds. I never saw her. It was hard to, between the doctors, nutritionists, her mom, and her band. In the end there wasn't anything we could do. We had been isolated from each other. I spent every year of highschool growing up with her. Becoming a man. Our relationship wasn't like other high school relationships, because we knew that it could be stripped from us at any moment. We were dealing with adult troubles at a young age. I was watching my baby destroy herself and there was nothing I could do.

88. Date: 08 Oct 2012

You have beautiful eyes. I mean it.

87. Date: 08 Oct 2012

If you have any time to spare today, indulge yourself in something you enjoyed when you were a child. You won't regret it. If you can't remember anything, try something new! You're never too old to be young.

86. Date: 08 Oct 2012

love is the worlds most valuable gift. cherish it forever. When you love someone, you have to know when to pick your times. If you jump into a relationship then it doesn't always work out right. Your loved one should be your best friend and your biggest priority. Love comes slowly, love at first sight is just a phrase. be their best friend before the relationship then when the time is right, make it happen. There is only a friend zone if you believe in one, so don't let it get to you. keep trying, be persistent, don't let love fail.

85. Date: 08 Oct 2012

What would you say to a friend in the same situation as yourself? Would you say kind things? It's time to say those kind things to yourself. Be your own best friend.

84. Date: 08 Oct 2012

Dear unknown recipient,
If you have the time, I would strongly suggest you look up the musician Sigur Ros. If you have already heard of him, cheers. If you have not, I would strongly urge you to listen to his music.

83. Date: 08 Oct 2012

Dearest creature in creation
Studying English pronunciation,
I will teach you in my verse
Sounds like corpse, corps, horse and worse
I will keep you, Susy, busy,
Make your head with heat grow dizzy.
Tear in eye your dress you'll tear,
So shall I! Oh, hear my prayer,
Pray, console your loving poet,
Make my coat look new, dear, sew it!
Just compare heart, beard and heard,
Dies and diet, lord and word,
Sword and sward, retain and Britain.
(Mind the latter, how it's written).
Made has not the sound of bade,
Say said, pay-paid, laid, but plaid.
Now I surely will not plague you
With such words as vague and ague,
But be careful how you speak,
Say break, steak, but bleak and streak.
Previous, precious, fuchsia, via,
Pipe, snipe, recipe and choir,
Cloven, oven, how and low,
Script, receipt, shoe, poem, toe.
Hear me say, devoid of trickery:
Daughter, laughter and Terpsichore,
Typhoid, measles, topsails, aisles.
Exiles, similes, reviles.
Wholly, holly, signal, signing.
Thames, examining, combining
Scholar, vicar, and cigar,
Solar, mica, war, and far.
From "desire": desirable--admirable from "admire."
Lumber, plumber, bier, but brier.
Chatham, brougham, renown, but known.
Knowledge, done, but gone and tone,
One, anemone. Balmoral.
Kitchen, lichen, laundry, laurel,
Gertrude, German, wind, and mind.
Scene, Melpomene, mankind,
Tortoise, turquoise, chamois-leather,
Reading, reading, heathen, heather.
This phonetic labyrinth
Gives moss, gross, brook, brooch, ninth, plinth.
Billet does not end like ballet;
Bouquet, wallet, mallet, chalet;
Blood and flood are not like food,
Nor is mould like should and would.
Banquet is not nearly parquet,
Which is said to rime with "darky."
Viscous, Viscount, load, and broad.
Toward, to forward, to reward.
And your pronunciation's O.K.,
When you say correctly: croquet.
Rounded, wounded, grieve, and sieve,
Friend and fiend, alive, and live,
Liberty, library, heave, and heaven,
Rachel, ache, moustache, eleven,
We say hallowed, but allowed,
People, leopard, towed, but vowed.
Mark the difference, moreover,
Between mover, plover, Dover,
Leeches, breeches, wise, precise,
Chalice, but police, and lice.
Camel, constable, unstable,
Principle, disciple, label,
Petal, penal, and canal,
Wait, surmise, plait, promise, pal.
Suit, suite, ruin, circuit, conduit,
Rime with "shirk it" and "beyond it."
But it is not hard to tell,
Why it's pall, mall, but Pall Mall.
Muscle, muscular, gaol, iron,
Timber, climber, bullion, lion,
Worm and storm, chaise, chaos, and chair,
Senator, spectator, mayor,
Ivy, privy, famous, clamour
And enamour rime with hammer.
Pussy, hussy, and possess,
Desert, but dessert, address.
Golf, wolf, countenance, lieutenants.
Hoist, in lieu of flags, left pennants.
River, rival, tomb, bomb, comb,
Doll and roll and some and home.
Stranger does not rime with anger.
Neither does devour with clangour.
Soul, but foul and gaunt but aunt.
Font, front, won't, want, grand, and grant.
Shoes, goes, does. Now first say: finger.
And then: singer, ginger, linger,
Real, zeal, mauve, gauze, and gauge,
Marriage, foliage, mirage, age.
Query does not rime with very,
Nor does fury sound like bury.
Dost, lost, post; and doth, cloth, loth;
Job, Job; blossom, bosom, oath.
Though the difference seems little,
We say actual, but victual.
Seat, sweat; chaste, caste.; Leigh, eight, height;
Put, nut; granite, and unite.
Reefer does not rime with deafer,
Feoffer does, and zephyr, heifer.
Dull, bull, Geoffrey, George, ate, late,
Hint, pint, Senate, but sedate.
Scenic, Arabic, Pacific,
Science, conscience, scientific,
Tour, but our and succour, four,
Gas, alas, and Arkansas.
Sea, idea, guinea, area,
Psalm, Maria, but malaria,
Youth, south, southern, cleanse and clean,
Doctrine, turpentine, marine.
Compare alien with Italian,
Dandelion with battalion.
Sally with ally, yea, ye,
Eye, I, ay, aye, whey, key, quay.
Say aver, but ever, fever.
Neither, leisure, skein, receiver.
Never guess--it is not safe:
We say calves, valves, half, but Ralph.
Heron, granary, canary,
Crevice and device, and eyrie,
Face but preface, but efface,
Phlegm, phlegmatic, ass, glass, bass.
Large, but target, gin, give, verging,
Ought, out, joust, and scour, but scourging,
Ear but earn, and wear and bear
Do not rime with here, but ere.
Seven is right, but so is even,
Hyphen, roughen, nephew, Stephen,
Monkey, donkey, clerk, and jerk,
Asp, grasp, wasp, and cork and work.
Pronunciation--think of psyche--!
Is a paling, stout and spikey,
Won't it make you lose your wits,
Writing "groats" and saying "grits"?
It's a dark abyss or tunnel,
Strewn with stones, like rowlock, gunwale,
Islington and Isle of Wight,
Housewife, verdict, and indict!
Don't you think so, reader, rather,
Saying lather, bather, father?
Finally: which rimes with "enough"
Though, through, plough, cough, hough, or tough?
Hiccough has the sound of "cup."
My advice is--give it up!

82. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I ALWAYS LEAVE MY WORK UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE AND I FUCKING HATE MYSELF FOR IT

81. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I've never been inside any house except my own. I've never had a friend before. I try not to hate life. But I do.

80. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I really like someone, but he has a girlfriend who's absolutely gorgeous, and I'm so horribly average. Perhaps even less than average... I was hoping that it was just a crush and it would pass, but it's been a couple years now and it never has. I just wish it didn't make me feel so bad, and that I didn't feel so lonely all the time.

79. Date: 08 Oct 2012

help

78. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I love her, but she loves him.:(

77. Date: 08 Oct 2012

Use frozen grapes to chill your wine without spoiling it (no ice cubes, no water).

76. Date: 08 Oct 2012

Dont let robots take over the world.

75. Date: 08 Oct 2012

For all the bad that's happened, an equal amount of good things will happen.

74. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I fucking love pizza.

73. Date: 08 Oct 2012

How are you doing today :)

72. Date: 08 Oct 2012

The most astounding fact in the universe. I wish everyone in the world would watch this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9D05ej8u-gU

71. Date: 08 Oct 2012

Rachel, I don't know if you will ever read this, but I love you. I love you so much. Your gorgeous green eyes, your shining smile, your silly little giggle every time I make a joke, your love and appreciation for music, your patience, the way you're serious when I want to talk and goofy when I want to joke around. I love you. I want to be with you forever. Rachel, please give me a chance. Give this stupid teenage boy a chance, please.
-Me.

70. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I met the love of my life a year ago, and she said yes a month ago. Life is good, and I am too happy to describe~

69. Date: 08 Oct 2012

Second amendment is best amendment

68. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I dodged a bullet there. Your friends told me you've got a real mess on your hands now and I'm glad not to be a part of it. I feel bad for you, being dragged around like that by her. But I guess you can only feel so sorry for someone who doesn't feel sorry enough for themselves to spark change. I don't hate you, I'd rather you acknowledged me instead of staring through me like I'm the ghost of a drunken poor decision you want to forget. I get it. I was upset at first, I wanted to forget too. But I know now you got the short end of the stick. You know now you got the short end of the stick. I dodged a bullet there.

67. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I sometimes ponder why we need to wipe after we go toilet.

66. Date: 08 Oct 2012

I just came out to my parents. They were the most understanding and graceful I've ever seen them.

Don't bottle up emotions.

65. Date: 08 Oct 2012

the cake is a lie. pie is better

64. Date: 08 Oct 2012

You are beautiful.

Too cheesy?

How about...
You mean a lot to someone, maybe it's your cat or maybe it's your spouse,
Heh. Cats. Meowowowowowow. MEOWOWOWOWOOWOWW,
Oh boy, you gotta be kitten me! This is too purrr-fect.
& Unoriginal.
Bye.

63. Date: 08 Oct 2012

The new Dredd is the coolest motherfucking movie. Seriously. Go see it.

62. Date: 08 Oct 2012

wet water puppy milk

61. Date: 08 Oct 2012

All you have to do to feel happy, is tap into the universal tunnel through your mind, and remind yourself that goodness flows, in and out.. and back in, and out.. and back in..

60. Date: 08 Oct 2012

"And therefore as a stranger give it welcome.
There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,
Than are dreamt of in your philosophy."

--Prince Hamlet

In the midst of deep depression and cut off from love- familial, romantic, and platonic- I write to you, the stranger who might read this, with a message of hope. The world is not only the cold machinations of physical existence, or the depth of emotion that lies in the bosom of the one you love. There are strange vistas of existence and non-existence that await the willing observer. Turn your mind for but a moment from reality and engage the infinite pathways inward- the mind's eye can see all you can imagine.

Fear not. Abide. Love. Leave.

59. Date: 08 Oct 2012

And lo, I have seen that which draws
us to hallowed ground, to that which simultaneously
makes and erases lines in the sand, and blots
out empires, and raises
their descendants.

it moves in cycles, going round and round
in beautiful even symmetry, never deviating,
nor ceasing, an eternal march forward
a microcosm on the back of my wrist.

58. Date: 26 Sep 2012

How odd and how wonderful, that I have never met you and you should receive this. That I should be sitting at my desk trying to think of something deep and meaningful to say to brighten your day.
I hope you get what you want today. I hope the sun will be shining, wherever you are. I hope you don't burn your toast or spill coffee on your shirt. I hope the person you love will love you back. I hope you check your mailbox and find a big fat cheque that you weren't expecting. I hope you're not late for anything. I hope you bump into a friend you haven't seen in a long time. I hope you tick off all the items on your to-do list and that makes you feel good about yourself. I hope you'll look in the mirror and like what you see, I hope you don't run out of milk, or toothpaste, or toilet paper, and your favourite show is on tonight. I hope you'll be kind to your neighbours and they'll be kind to you.
Whatever this wonderful day has in store for you, remember that there's someone, somewhere, who doesn't even know you but is wishing you all the happiness in the world.

57. Date: 22 Sep 2012

You are a great person!

56. Date: 18 Sep 2012

jajajaja

55. Date: 17 Sep 2012

I am a classroom teacher who wants my children to know that there are people who actually do things other than consume. How do you connect with your community? how can you show it?

54. Date: 17 Sep 2012

Hello there,

So, I'm massively procrastinating right now, and a "good" friend of mine showed me this website. So I guess I'm supposed to go through some random diatribe about how life is going to get sooo much better, and that this message is going to change the way you see yourself, and that everything is chirpy.

But honestly, that's all complete shit! Here are my mantras, newly developed, perfectly conceptualized, and entirely accurate.
1. Don't give a damn about anyone
2. See above
3. Trapping yourself into something that you really really don't like - BAD IDEA
4. Men blow
5. So do women

What else.... Oh yeah, everything I say is complete garbage. (If you doubt this -- well, you might need an IQ check, but otherwise, just bear in mind that it's a universally acknowledged fact that 99.9999% +/(not minus) 1% of everything I say and/or prescribe to is total crap. Ask the people I work with if you don't believe me)

Oh wait.. that's right. you can't. instead, you've just wasted about 3-4 minutes of your life reading this silly message.

Happy living!

S.

53. Date: 17 Sep 2012

Hello there,

So, I'm massively procrastinating right now, and a "good" friend of mine showed me this website. So I guess I'm supposed to go through some random diatribe about how life is going to get sooo much better, and that this message is going to change the way you see yourself, and that everything is chirpy.

But honestly, that's all complete shit! Here are my mantras, newly developed, perfectly conceptualized, and entirely accurate.
1. Don't give a damn about anyone
2. See above
3. Trapping yourself into something that you really really don't like - BAD IDEA
4. Men blow
5. So do women

What else.... Oh yeah, everything I say is complete garbage. (If you doubt this -- well, you might need an IQ check, but otherwise, just bear in mind that it's a universally acknowledged fact that 99.9999% +/(not minus) 1% of everything I say and/or prescribe to is total crap. Ask the people I work with if you don't believe me)

Oh wait.. that's right. you can't. instead, you've just wasted about 3-4 minutes of your life reading this silly message.

Happy living!

S.

52. Date: 17 Sep 2012

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ch1Tcw03aDw

51. Date: 17 Sep 2012

I m listening to Sigur Ros, to their new album Valtari ! It's 22:52 in Slovakia, it has rained. The evening is silent, you can still smell the rain in the air ...I have the perfect melancholic mood for writing, enjoying *myself, everything* ....contemplating my life....recalling ....my loveliest moments in Edinburgh...

I think we all need to stop sometimes, for a couple of minutes, to THINK, CONTEMPLATE - I find it hard sometimes but NOW is the time , maybe it is for you, too...

50. Date: 17 Sep 2012

I feel like a fraud.

It doesn't help that I lie a bunch. It's usually about small things but it is sometimes about larger things.

People call me "smart" or "genius" but I feel inept more often than I'll ever admit.

I don't know what I should be doing with my life.

I'm starting university in the fall and I don't know if I'll ever find what I want.

I don't even know what I want.

That's a problem, because I don't want to waste money on a useless endeavor, either.

On a significantly brighter note:

My gut tells me you are probably a good person, because you opted to receive this message-in-a-digital-bottle. I just thought I would share some of my deepest concerns.

Write back if you want happy things!

49. Date: 13 Sep 2012

Cheer the fuck up. Life is beautiful.

48. Date: 13 Sep 2012

That's an overwhelming but very fine thought. But in some way, these pieces of art are inevitably being made by everyone- just that some are less visible than others to a greater or smaller crowd- isn't it?

In response to:

Sometimes I think it's a great shame that everyone's life can't be shared and documented as the biggest art project ever. Each life is lived in a unique way and there must be hidden beauties we can't see for ourselves, but perhaps the ephemeral nature of it all is what makes is so beautiful.

47. Date: 12 Sep 2012

Why do I feel so sad? I am distraught inside. I do not want to feel like this. Every hour is an hour lost in my infinitely short life. Why, when every inch of my mind and body wants to feel happy, do I still feel sad? Why can we not control our emotions? Is this what it is to truly be alive?

46. Date: 10 Sep 2012

Well, I sing and write songs. And I think I'm a pretty good song writer. I don't necessarily want the famous life-style as much as I want to be noticed in the industry and do something with with my talent.

If I can make money doing writing songs for other artists to sing, as well as myself, I would be happy.

In response to:

I dont think that its bad as long as you follow your dream and dont hurt others on your way of acheiveing it theres nothing wrong about it.Mind if u become famous u can even help a lot of people.What do u want to be famous for?

45. Date: 10 Sep 2012

Is it bad that I want to be famous?

44. Date: 06 Sep 2012

If there is any possible consolation in the tragedy of losing someone we love very much, it's the necessary hope that perhaps it was for the best. Keep the good moments spent with them and live your life to the utmost!

43. Date: 05 Sep 2012

There will always be some that capture your attention, and others you could also love.

In response to:

I am so confused. I have loved him for three years, why am I so attracted to another person though? When will I know that my decision is the right one?

42. Date: 04 Sep 2012

I procrastinate a lot as well. It's really easy to fall into, and it's gotten me into trouble more often than not. I can't really "quit" procrastinating. It's too ingrained in my life at this point. Once I almost got kicked out of university because of it. I realized I had to change.

The best way to beat procrastination is, to just do it! It's as hard as it sounds, which I'm sure you can attest to, but is absolutely necessary.

My favorite method is multi-tasking. If I have to do some homework I'll watch TV while I work instead of watching TV in place of working. I might listen to a podcast while I write or listen to music while I study. That's my method. I'm pretty good at multi-tasking so it works for me.

-K

In response to:

Hey! I've just read an article about procrastinating on the BBC and despite knowing that I am a procrastinator and really really really wishing I wasn't, I find it very difficult to quit the nasty habit. Even if I do make a list of things I need to get on with, I will inevitably go back to facebook or some other random activity which sucks away my precious time.

Are you a procrastinator too? Be honest. I guess the chances are that you probably are. Have you tried 'quitting'? What methods did you employ? Were you successful?

I look forward to hearing your stories!

J

41. Date: 04 Sep 2012

Don't get me wrong, I know exactly how you feel. I've told myself everything you've just said, countless times.

Since then, I managed through very contrived methods and some manipulation to get a girlfriend. It lasted all of three months. We were never meant for each other. I haven't found anyone else either.

Cuddling, kissing, holding hands, those things are really overrated. Even the things it leads into are. You don't kiss someone for the sake of kissing, it's all about expressing feelings for someone.

You're no less of a person because you haven't done these things yet. In fact, it's even better if you do it with someone who you truly care about and who truly cares about you.

You can say you're no good at flirting and dating and all that kind of stuff, but think about this. Your father and your mother, and their parents, and their parents, and their parents, etc. etc. have all managed to find each other. It's not like dating requires a specific set of skills you need to master.

You may say that you're going to forget about it and live your life without love. I said the exact same thing right before I got together with who is now my ex. The fact that you wrote this shows that you don't agree with that position. You do want it.

You want things to change. Well, things don't change by themselves. To get something you've never had before, you'll have to do something you've never done before.

Take risks. What do you have to lose? Why would it matter what some random stranger thinks of you? Most people aren't so different from you. Everyone has dealt with these feelings at some point in their lives.

"For billions of years since the onset of time, every single one of your ancestors survived. Every single person on your mum's and dad's side successfully looked after and passed on to you life. What are the chances of that like?"

In response to:

I'm the guy who can't seem to find love. I try but I'm not good at flirting and dating and all of that stuff. I work hard on personal projects to fill the void that a relationship would fill. I feel like I'll never understand other people, and that if there was a person like me, we'd never meet each other. Cuddling, kissing, and hell, even holding hands, are things I've never done. With my level of social ineptitude I'm afraid it will never happen. I'm just going to work hard, put my head down, and forget about it. What's the point? Love isn't for everyone. It's not for me.

40. Date: 04 Sep 2012

I'll tell you something, it's better not to know and die not knowing, then actually realise it year(s) later. Truth cannot make you happy, it only makes everything worse. I remember hearing a song which went something like 'the pretty lies, the ugly truth' and it's true. You see? It's ugly to realise these things. Nobody wants to hear the truth, you know it hurts, it makes you feel bad, because, let's face it, when did you hear a good truth? You lie to make it better, and it's ok. We should keep it like that, you know. Life won't get better and we won't get happier. But with these little lies life is a little better, if you know how to lie. But then again, lie is a hard thing to do, maybe we just need to go around the truth, it doesn't hurt anybody and you won't feel guilty for lying. The answer is, I will get sad, then angry, then again sad, then maybe depressed and eventually move on. You just have to, that's life. But I would say, if life got me going without knowing it, I don't need to know it and maybe, maybe then I'm going to be happier just for a little bit.

In response to:

When you realise some truth, only years too late, do you get happy that you got there eventually, our sad that it took you so long?

39. Date: 04 Sep 2012

Sorry if I'm grumpy and take it out on you... you're kick-ass.

38. Date: 04 Sep 2012

Sometimes I think it's a great shame that everyone's life can't be shared and documented as the biggest art project ever. Each life is lived in a unique way and there must be hidden beauties we can't see for ourselves, but perhaps the ephemeral nature of it all is what makes is so beautiful.

37. Date: 04 Sep 2012

When you realise some truth, only years too late, do you get happy about the fact that you eventually got there, or sad about the fact that it took you so long?

36. Date: 04 Sep 2012

When you realise some truth, only years too late, do you get happy that you got there eventually, our sad that it took you so long?

35. Date: 04 Sep 2012

I'm the guy who can't seem to find love. I try but I'm not good at flirting and dating and all of that stuff. I work hard on personal projects to fill the void that a relationship would fill. I feel like I'll never understand other people, and that if there was a person like me, we'd never meet each other. Cuddling, kissing, and hell, even holding hands, are things I've never done. With my level of social ineptitude I'm afraid it will never happen. I'm just going to work hard, put my head down, and forget about it. What's the point? Love isn't for everyone. It's not for me.

34. Date: 04 Sep 2012

This is the first message sent on digitalbottles.com.

Huzza!

33. Date: 03 Sep 2012

Where are all my grapes?

32. Date: 30 Aug 2012

i wish i could be your friend, you whoever you are i wish i could be the person you can talk to and you could be the one i talk to. that we could have fun and do whatever. make each others life's a little happier. and whoever you are maybe someday we will be friends if so... see you soon. if not then we can get other friends who feel the same way and think maybe its you... maybe

31. Date: 29 Aug 2012

I miss my friends in Hong Kong but how am I going to go back if I loved being a technologist around San Francisco (it's all sunny here)? Have a great day!

30. Date: 28 Aug 2012

We're a bunch of friends, sitting in a kitchen, and we're struggling to come up with something to say. Whoever you are, wherever you are, I hope you're having an awesome time. If there's someone sitting next to you, kiss them on our behalf.

Let me know how it goes.

29. Date: 27 Aug 2012

Hey! I've just read an article about procrastinating on the BBC and despite knowing that I am a procrastinator and really really really wishing I wasn't, I find it very difficult to quit the nasty habit. Even if I do make a list of things I need to get on with, I will inevitably go back to facebook or some other random activity which sucks away my precious time.

Are you a procrastinator too? Be honest. I guess the chances are that you probably are. Have you tried 'quitting'? What methods did you employ? Were you successful?

I look forward to hearing your stories!

J

28. Date: 26 Aug 2012

Legalize Marijuana - http://i.imgur.com/fODe6.jpg

27. Date: 26 Aug 2012

i send ganga energy!!!!

26. Date: 23 Aug 2012

dear human,
in my world people are often mean. my friends can't get homes and struggle to eat and sometimes get hurt by bad people because of the colour of their skin or what's between their legs or who they're holding hands with. i hope that in your world people are kind and can give kindness.
yours sincerely,
a fellow human.

25. Date: 23 Aug 2012

Guidance, wisdom and purpose be damned -- we wanted something warm around
us, something warm inside us, and any animal warm enough and big enough
to attempt to eat us hung up on the wall. Achieving these goals would turn
out to be somewhat difficult -- this was the beginning of creation after all, and
mankind was not awfully familiar with concepts like ‘fire', ‘animal' or; for that matter; `us'.

24. Date: 23 Aug 2012

A bath; if not to be clean then at least to ensure that the dirt was evenly spread. Sort of like those fancy tans that you see on the bald ladies at skin cancer benefits.

A bath, some whisky, skin cancer benefits. A new hair colour every day, the shady seat, exotic melanoma. People need to be cooler about this sort of thing -- like that hip guy on death row.

``We can hang together.''

Nice guy, very centered, I liked him. Wonder what had happened to him.

23. Date: 23 Aug 2012

I think that sometimes life is kinda weird.

22. Date: 21 Aug 2012

I'm just looking for a woman who know how to listen to a man's heart !

21. Date: 21 Aug 2012

Looking for an English conversation mate. The deal is that we speak half an hour in English and Half an hour French. So I can practice my English and you can practice your French!

20. Date: 21 Aug 2012

watch Fight Club

19. Date: 20 Aug 2012

I should be happy with my life. I should be thankful for everything that's been given to me and proud of all the accomplishments I've made; but I can't.
Something is dragging me down, back into apathy, depression, self-criticism, and doubt.
What is wrong with me?

18. Date: 19 Aug 2012

Blah ! I am a nut

17. Date: 19 Aug 2012

Your husband is bored, too.

16. Date: 19 Aug 2012

I'm paralyzed with anxiety. So many simple things I need to do, and so many simple things to be afraid of.

15. Date: 19 Aug 2012

You will die alone.

14. Date: 19 Aug 2012

I'm sad that I had an idea for a service like this but gave up after I received so much spam. Wish the developers of this all the best.

13. Date: 19 Aug 2012

I love you.

12. Date: 19 Aug 2012

asdf

11. Date: 19 Aug 2012

I don't like men.

10. Date: 18 Aug 2012

She will never love me.

9. Date: 17 Aug 2012

You look / looked great today

8. Date: 16 Aug 2012

I just want to feel loved.

7. Date: 16 Aug 2012

To whomever receives this,

I'm not too old, but I've learnt that one of the best feelings in life is being nice to everyone, regardless of them being nice back or not. Try it.

Also, high five.

See you

6. Date: 16 Aug 2012

Hello!
So, i met this girl on this internet-dating site, stupid idea i know. But we hit it off quite well. I'm a very shy guy and i haven't spoken to a real girl in ages. But last night, she prompted me to give her a call. I was nervous as shit, shaking and sweating. But after i pressed "dial" i decided there's no way back.
The phone call in itself was rather awkward, but it felt good and we had a nice chat and then said our goodbyes. This has given me hope in sometime being loved. As a kissless 19 year old virgin watching relationships flourish all around me has left me in some kind of depression towards relationships.

Things are looking brigther :)

5. Date: 15 Aug 2012

Now it's eight o' clock, Gerry's a little bit late tonight
The dusk is deepening. Soon the nightly battle of London will be on.
This has been a quiet day for us but it won't be a quiet night.
The searchlights are in position. The guns are ready.
The people's army of volunteers are ready.
They are the ones who are really fighting this war.
Brokers, clerks, pedlars, merchants by day. They are heroes by night.

These are not Hollywood sounds effects.
This is the music they play every night in London.
The symphony of war.
London can take it.

London raises her head, shakes the debris of the night from her hair
and takes stock of the damage done.
The sign of a great fighter in the ring is,
can he get up from the floor after being knocked down.
London does this every morning.

There is no panic, no fear, no despair in London town.
London can take it.

The night is long, but sooner or later the dawn will come.

4. Date: 13 Aug 2012

It was lovely... Wandering around town... Late lunch... Jetting off on holiday tomorrow. And you? Where are you?

In response to:

damn, that's so true.

i've always wondered why we're so afraid of maintaining eye contact on the street. who taught us that? when did we learn it? it sucks.

how was your day today?

3. Date: 13 Aug 2012

Steve here!

I like going for coffee with Team Nogg.

Keep on rocking.

2. Date: 13 Aug 2012

OK, let me see how this works.

1. Date: 13 Aug 2012

“It’s amusing that our model of ourselves is that of an impenetrable machine we somehow need to decode and predict—then and only then can we make the right decisions in order to be happy. We set up miniature experiments and carefully monitor our responses and how others react to us to see if we should repeat or continue the experience. Frantically moving from one friend, lover, job, university, project, political cause, to the next, each briefly improving the situation and giving us the status and self-importance we need to get out of bed in the morning. Worrying about the global issues, reading the news religiously every day so we’re informed individuals and can ramble on for hours about the pains of people in the world we’ll never meet. Ignoring people we could share happiness with or—worse—learning methods of manipulation so we can influence those closest (proximal) to us, the satisfaction of a person molded feeding back into our personal status machine. Eye contact, use first name, soft tone, develop a rapport but not for too long lest honesty and humility creeps in. Helping and diplomacy rather than sharing and empathy.”

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